The ending of this trip is a new beginning for us. I realized this as I watched your car pull out of the train station parking lot from my seat on the train, as I wiped away the tears pooling in my lash line. I took photos of your car and sent them to a mutual friend. I saw your car pull over to the side of the road and wondered who you were texting and I hoped it was me even though I left you five minutes ago.
The night before I met your family. When I got out of your car and saw them, I thought about what I looked like and what I had on and realized that I was a shiny looking doll-like city slicker. I felt overdressed but I knew that I overdressed to make a good impression. I didn't think I'd be able to laugh so easily but I did. I didn't think that they'd accept me so easily, but they did. Your grandmother, especially, lived up to the nickname you gave her when you were learning how to talk. She is sweet and has stuck to me like honey.
Your sister and I now share secrets with each other and we will never tell you what they are. She smiled when she talks to me and maybe it's because she is being polite because I talk too much or it could be because she truly likes me. Either or, it doesn't matter to me because I truly like her. For some reason, I now want to protect her and help her do anything and everything. I'd do her makeup and her nails and make her a plus one on a date. I think she deserves the world. And, I hope she passed that test.
I didn't know how to hold your hand properly and when was the right time to hold it. As he walked around the mall, I wanted to and I think we did. I can't remember. But, in the car, when you placed your hand low on my thigh and squeezed it, I wanted to grab your hand and hold it. I did though and I don't know how you received it since your hand didn't do anything. I do know that your hand fits perfectly in mine. Our fingers look well laced together since your fingers are longer than mine. For once, though, my hand never got sweaty when you held it.
It was dark and I could barely see but you pulled me closer to you and I didn't mind. You kissed my forehead and I closed my eyes. I didn't know what time it was but I was sleepy and you were warm. You kissed my forehead and I drifted off to sleep. I was still in your embrace when I woke up, realized that I had blinked and this was the end of my trip. I buried my face in your chest once more as the sun rose. I began to miss you when I was standing in the shower washing my body. My heart broke when I got in the car with you and broke into another piece like the ice caps with every mile that put me closer to the train station.
