It's happened to all of you at one point in your lifetime. You had that bestie that just stopped being your bestie. Maybe you had a falling out, or maybe you drifted apart slowly, not noticing until you looked back. Either way it's always a little painful when nostalgia hits, and you remember all of the good things. I've learned that no matter how nasty the falling out was, in time the harshness goes away, and you will find yourself smiling as you think of the stupid things that used to make you laugh so hard together. The way that person hurt you probably doesn't matter anymore, and you're just genuinely curious about how they are doing. If you are still hurt by them, you're probably looking back with a little bitterness, but you're still looking back.
Which is normal. Because when you label someone your "best friend", it's a big deal to you. That individual is a prominent person in your life. You confide in them, you are comfortable with them, and you let your walls down for them. You hope that sense of importance is reciprocated by them, which is why it hurts with the intensity of 1,000 suns when they walk right out of your life.
No matter how long or deep the friendship was, there are certain things that happen.
1. You are mad at them.
You're not sure if they were always just using you for your belts, but if they were, they deserve to get slapped with one.
2. You don't know what to do now.
Who are you supposed to call at various times throughout the day so you can tell them all about the meaningless sh*t that happened to you. Also nobody else wants to receive random snapchats of your fat rolls so you're going to have to stop taking those photos.
3. You become bitter.
You vomit when you see their new bestie. She's an average b*tch. Their Instagram pictures SUCK, your BFF pics were better. You hope they die in a fire.
4. You want to even the score by finding new friends too.
But it doesn't work out.
5. You grow more annoyed as you discover the things you have to do on your own.
You can check for sh*t in your own teeth. You also know you're making progress because you dressed yourself today without sending them snapchats.
6. You are sad.
You accidentally spent three hours looking through old pictures today. Only sobbed for the entire time.
7. But nobody can know that you're sad.
You've actually never been better. Truly. You don't even remember their name, probably.
8. You have to drown your sorrows.
You don't care if they were normally there by your side to help you get wasted in a time of sadness. Two's a crowd. That's not the expression, is it?
9. You either make new friends, or fall back into rhythm with old ones.
They are dope, and an added bonus: They don't like that b*tch either.
10. Eventually you look around and realize how good you're doing.
You are happy again. Maybe you're happier than before, who knows, but it feels good AF.
