I saw something the other day that took me back to when we were inseparable, and I wanted so badly to call you immediately and tell you about it.

I didn't, though, because you and I don't really talk anymore. It was then I felt the you-sized hole in my heart again. I don't know at what point everything ended. It seems like one day it was you and me against the world, and the next day, it was you and the world against me. I want you to know that despite the distance and time that's between us now, I haven't stopped loving you and wanting the best for you, and whatever it was that wedged us apart broke my heart.

In the end, I know that we both share the blame for whatever petty mess put us where we are today.

I want to apologize for the things that I did that you blame me for. I harbor no hard feeling toward you, and I would hope you harbor no bad feelings toward me. I would hate for anger to tarnish the wonderful memories we have together.

The times of me knowing you like the back of my hand and always being the person you turn to have faded, but I know that I wouldn't be who I am today if it hadn't been for you. You taught me more than you know. In true times of darkness in my life, you were the light.

Thank you for the laughter, the jokes, and the crazy times we had that will forever be with me. Thank you for showing me your unique perspective on life, and unknowingly changing my view on the world.

If someone had told me back then that we wouldn't grow told together, I would have laughed in their face. But I've learned that people change and grow. When they do, they either grow together or grow apart. You and I grew apart. For so long my place in the world was right next to you, and whoever has that place now is definitely lucky.

I'll love you forever,

Your old best friend