Why does caring a lot for people you love always seem to come off as a negative thing? I've always been the girl who cares too much; the girl who loves people too much. I worry about people who I love, to the point where I will text them or even their boyfriend if they aren't responding to make sure that they are okay.
I'm the girl who laughs at jokes that aren't funny just to make someone feel good about themselves, and I'm also the girl who cries when I leave camp, even if the people live five minutes away from me.
I thrive off of other people's happiness. It's like a high. Seeing people happy makes me happy. I love it. I've always been someone who tells jokes and does absolutely anything I can to be there for people when they need me and I care so much for the people I'm close with. I'm the type of person that will answer your text in two seconds flat all the time unless I'm sleeping or actually busy, which isn't often. I will answer your phone call when I'm eating dinner with my family just in case something's wrong. I will go out of my way to make you happy if you're upset. I'll send you 400-second long snapchats of me making fun of myself, dancing and lip syncing to songs that I don't even know the words to, just to make you laugh. I'll FaceTime you if you need me to and I'll try my best to give you advice that'll help your situation. If I can, I'll even drive to your house and bring you food. I just never think about the fact that people don't seem to care for me that much. It's weird. I don't know what made me care this much, and it's nice that I do, I hope it makes people feel good that they have someone who will always be there. It just hurts extra bad when I think about the fact that people aren't always there for me like that.
I'm always the one to initiate conversations over text and somehow I'm also usually the last one to talk even if the conversation doesn't seem to be over.
I'm so used to the way I do things, that when others don't do the same, I mistake it for them thinking I'm annoying or thinking that I'm someone they don't want to talk to anymore. It messes with my head.
If you're reading this and you find that you are similar to me in that you too feel that you care too much, just know that it is okay. But be aware of the fact that even though we seem to care too much, just because someone doesn't show that they care the same way that you do doesn't mean that they don't care.
