If five years ago I told myself that I would be a college graduate and living in a different state, I would've laughed at myself. Seeing as how five years ago I was a college drop out living in the heart of Los Angeles trying to become an actress.

When I came to my university I knew exactly what I wanted to do. I had the 3-year-plan down to a T. I majored in a major that I've thought about my entire life so I thought everything was going to be perfect. Until I realized about 8 months ago that I didn't necessarily want to major in it anymore. I mean I do love my major. But over the year I've come to the realization that it's not what I want my career to be. In fact, I want to do the complete opposite.

Now that I am officially in my post-grad life, I’m more lost than ever before. I thought that once I was done with my travels that I would know exactly where I want to start my life, know exactly what I want to do, and would have every type of motivation to do it. But truly, I don’t, and somehow I'm perfectly okay with that.

At times, I feel like I’ve forgotten who I am. When I’m in my college town, when I’m surrounded by all my friends, I know exactly who I am and what I want. But once I get back to the real world, I get into a shell and go back to the person I was before I moved away from home. I'm not saying that my friends determine my life, but they kind of do. Meeting them, and moving away quite frankly saved my life and I'm forever thankful for that.

What I have realized though is a lot of people my age are lost too. I thought it was just me, but recent grads such as myself are feeling the same way as well. So I guess it's kind of normal.

So here I am, more lost than ever before. Not knowing where my next step is. Maybe it's in South Africa, maybe it's in a different state, maybe it's right down the street from me. Who really knows. All I do know is that I never thought the day would ever come where I was okay with being lost.