I think One Direction said it best, "you're insecure." One Direction is right, I am insecure. I always have been, and I probably always will be because that is just human nature. Over time, I'll probably come to terms with what I look like and feel comfort in my own skin. In fact, I recently started a new and healthy diet. So far it hasn't done anything, but it is only the seventh day (at least as I write this). It has been difficult because I just miss food so much. Unfortunately, I am not the type of person that is naturally skinny or the person that has a fast metabolism. Although I wouldn't consider myself fat either. I am bigger than what I probably should be; hence my reasoning for starting a diet. Even though I may not be the skinniest or fattest girl around, I still have my insecurities.

There is so much pressure in today's world to have a certain look, and if you don't have that look, then that means there must be something wrong with you. There is a healthy balance that people should have, meaning they shouldn't be too skinny or overweight. Everyone is going to be insecure about something regardless of their weight. That in and of itself is not a bad thing. It becomes harmful when that is all you think about. If it is something that you use to put yourself down then I suggest you stop complaining and do something about it, but do it in a healthy way. You have to remember that it will take time. It isn't something that happens overnight. Even though it may be easy for some but hard for you, you have to keep in mind that everyone is different. It is essential that you don't give up and power through even if you are not getting the results that you want right away. These are things that I have come to realize with this diet.

I have a hard time with patience, especially when it comes to this diet. I seek that instant gratification so that I can feel "skinny" and hope that I no longer feel insecure. But whether or not this new diet works, I know that there are still going to be times when I feel insecure about my body. As I mentioned previously, everyone has their insecurities, even someone as gorgeous and talented as Beyoncé. In her documentary 'Homecoming' on Netflix, it shows that she has her insecurities too. She talks about how she needed to adjust to having kids and the effect it had on her both mentally and physically. So, if Beyoncé has insecurities then what makes you think that you can't have your own insecurities?

I have to fight my insecurities every single day. For example, when I wake up in the morning and put a pair of pants on that used to fit perfectly, but now are just a little too tight. Or when I go shopping and I see a super cute top, but they only have it in a small. When this happens, I break a little inside. Social media doesn't help either because that is a place where people only present their "best self" and all I see as I scroll is that "beautiful skinny girl" look. I know that I can never look like them; however, I will never really know what they are going through. They could have the exact same worries as me. The self that people show online can be vastly different than what is going on in real life. Use those insecurities as a good thing. Let them serve as a motivator.

Despite not being super skinny or overweight, I still struggle every day to accept what I look like. I know that it is a daily struggle, but I am not going down without a fight. I am working hard to get to a place where I am happy with my appearance. My body insecurities are valid, but I don't have to sit around and pity myself. I am doing something about my insecurities. Soon I'll be able to sing the rest of that One Direction, "You're insecure, don't know what for."