Have you ever looked back at something and regretted what you did? What you said? What you felt? I know I have. We all have small, minuscule regrets. Whether it be: I wish I hadn't said something, or I wouldn't have walked away, or wouldn't have let someone destroy me like that, or I would have held on a little longer and a little tighter.
One of the things I think we often forget to think about is the opposing effects of these. Like what if I did say something, or what if I did hug them one more time, or what if I punched that person who so greatly deserved it, or what if I said what was aching on my chest and eating me alive.
The big things are easy to remember, but what about those little things that keep our otherwise quiet minds awake at night? Those little monsters that sit on your shoulder, whispering into your ear, reminding you of what you could have done differently or said that would have changed everything.
Maybe what we would have said wouldn't have made a difference. Maybe it would just have been ignored. Maybe it would have been made fun of. Maybe it would have been read and not responded to. But maybe, just maybe, it would have made all the differences in the world.
Why wait? Why not just say it? Say what you want to say before it's too late. We forget so easily that life is so preciously short. It's all just a beautiful minute of time. We selfishly think that we'll have another chance or another moment just like this one or another second of time with someone we love. But sometimes we don't. Sometimes life just rips them from us and leaves us stranded, in bed, with tearstained pillows, wondering what it would have been like if we just said what we were so scared to say, or done what we feared the most, or just stayed a little bit longer.
Say it now. Don't wait for another simple chance to say what is eating you alive. Because what if you never get this opportunity again? Would you regret not saying it? Would it keep you awake at night?
Speak your mind, and say what needs to be said. Say it loud. Write it down and send it. Who cares if it is mocked or ignored or argued with? Release what needs to be released, and you will find yourself so content. You won't lie in bed wondering what it could have been like, but rather you will lie in bed knowing that you tried.
You cannot regret trying.
So don't let yourself lay in bed at night, wondering what could have been, if you are doing nothing to change it.
Don't let regrets mean more to you than reality.