Sometimes we all feel like we’re fighting a battle. We fight with our friends, our families, or anyone around us. But the hardest battle we will ever fight in our life is ourselves. We put ourselves down and critique ourselves harshly. We will never believe that we deserve the best, even though we do. And little by little it will take over your life, even if you don’t notice.
Lately I have been having an internal fight with myself. I question everything I do, every move I make, and I feel like everything I do is going to turn out to be the wrong thing to do. Then when I try to have fun, it’s almost impossible to actually enjoy it. I feel empty, and drained. I just want to sit at home and sleep. Nothing feels the same. I still laugh at jokes and genuinely find them funny. I can still have great conversations with people. I can sometimes feel good even if it's just for a brief moment. I just wish things were different, and I wish I didn't constantly feel this sadness.
I think you start battling yourself because of the things going on around you. If you’re stressed and dealing with a lot, you tend to get down on yourself. Lately, I just can’t find the positives in my life. It feels like nothing will ever be right. Bad things happen, and it feels like it’s just one thing right after another. I know God will get me through this eventually, but right now I feel like I’m fighting a losing battle.
If you are someone who is currently battling themselves, just know the fight will end someday. Maybe not today or tomorrow, but someday it will be OK. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, and the pain will go away. Don’t let your fears stop you. Attack your fears head on. Win the battle against yourself, and when you win that battle you will grow as a human being and achieve the life you want.
