Everyone wants to be in a relationship, or at least desires to be with another individual. It's only natural. Feeling that love and connection is something within humans that we need in order to progress in life in a healthy manner. However, it's very hard to have that connection and maintain it when you have anxiety over literally everything.
Anxiety isn't just being nervous about big events, having anxiety means you get nervous over even the smallest things. It feels as though your suffocating, and the air around you is escaping. You feel as though everyone is watching you struggle, and they choose to do nothing about it. When in reality, they probably don't even notice you, and that makes you even more anxious, because how can no one notice someone struggling like this?
But the worst thing probably is when someone with anxiety is in a relationship. They exert so much love from the beginning, because the anxiety hasn't kicked in yet. The longer the relationship goes on, the more anxious they get. You get jealous easier than the average person in a relationship, and you start to question if your significant other is spending so much time with their friends for a reason. When in reality they're just hanging out normally. You start to question yourself all the time, and wonder if you've done something wrong, and you're constantly waiting for the "we need to talk" message. You read the tones of messages wrong and you start to have a hard time breathing, thinking that they're mad at you. You get angry at your significant other because you assume they know what they did wrong and don't care, when in reality they have no idea your even mad about something.
You constantly want your significant other to tell you that they love you and will be here for you, but struggle when they won't tell you they love you, because they don't say it as easily and you do. You feel as though they could leave you at anytime, because who wants to put up with all of this?
But then something incredible happens. For a split second, when they hold you, that anxiety goes away. When they put effort into seeing you and making you their main focus, that anxiety disappears for that wonderful split second. The very thing you struggle to live with disappears for that brief period of time, and you realize that all those worries were just that, worries. It feels like you can breathe again, like they've pulled you from the water you were drowning in.
We can't escape our anxiety, because it will be with us forever. And no matter what we think, our loved ones will understand, and they will have patience with us.
