Anxiety

Something everybody has, yet nobody likes to talk about

And when they do they get laughed at, mocked, and told

"You just need to relax."

As if I don't already

Pushing away all of my problems until they slowly stack like the parts to a snowman.

Anxiety

Something nobody likes, and most times they never know they have it until it

Crawls up their spine and into any orifice it can find

Slumbering with your brain

Poisoning each thought that dares to have the courage to develop.

Anxiety

I know you feel it too

The overwhelming weight of life's responsibilities sitting on your shoulders

Drowning you in this bottomless pit of water that no matter

How many life jackets you put on you can't help but sink further.

And eventually we all sink, maybe that's the point

But I can't help but think that maybe that isn't the point,

Maybe I've just been conditioned to feel that way.

No, not through life itself, but the mindless actions therein.

The waking up late, missing alarms, swearing you pressed snooze

To the missed opportunities with friends because you thought every outfit you had looked stupid

Or the moments you wish you could change, like that job interview last summer when you swore

You had everything ready, until they asked to see a resume

And you were too foolish to have printed yours out the day of.

Anxiety

Oh how I wish it would go away

Fade in the night like the moon after a long travel through the sky

The sun replacing its illumination with warm rays

But Anxiety is never so simple

You never just wish it gone

Well, maybe you do

But it never just goes

It lingers, like the rancid smell of food sitting in the refrigerator for a couple days too long.

And everyday you open that refrigerator, take a huge whiff of that smell

But something compels you to not throw it out

There's no justification for it, there's no thinking at all

You ignore it and put it off.

Anxiety

You've ironically been my only friend.