Most people claim that they are classic hopeless romantics, and growing up, I thought I’d be one, too.

But, surprise, I’m not.

Being a hopeless romantic isn’t a bad thing, and I’ve learned that not being one isn’t a bad thing either.

I’m in love with the idea of love but I don’t feel comfortable expressing it.

I’m not one to look out for love. I don’t look out for potential relationships. I don’t develop crushes easily. I’d love to do these things, but for some odd reason, it’s not a subconscious priority to me.

When I do develop a crush, that person probably will never hear me admit it unless they admit one on me first. What happens if they never admit one? That’s when I try to get over it and pretend to move on until a new one is formed on someone else. Annnnnd, repeat.

I’ve never had the feeling of moping around from the feeling of being single but, I also know that I would love to be in a relationship. I think living a single life is fun and a wonderful time to learn more about myself while I’m young and have the energy to try new things and meet new people.

Love is a tricky thing for everyone. I will never understand why some people parade around the idea that love is overrated, because the truth is, we all know that it isn’t. Everyone wants to be loved. Some want to be loved by a significant other, some want to be loved by family and friends, and the rest can find self love.

I may or may not believe in love at first sight. I do believe in a happily ever after.

I love seeing other people fall in love, and hope to myself to experience that, but I’m not pushing it with any person around me. I’m not going to push it with someone I like unless they make the first move, but even then, I’ll still be hesitant to show too many emotions.

I’ve grown to be at peace with this “hook-up” generation that I’ve been placed in. No strings attached sounds so nice, so laid back, so easy, but we all know there are some unspoken strings attached in every one of these relationships. We just don’t admit it to anyone because there aren’t meant to be feelings, so why “overthink” if there are any, because there is no way in hell the other person feels the same way.

Strings in a no strings attached relationship can be anything from friendly feelings to romantic feelings, to feelings about how you could not care less about this person and wish they were someone else. There will always be some sort of feelings, or strings, attached. The reason that we do not admit any of these unless we’re at a negative point of conflict with that person is beyond me.

Love can be shown in a friendly way and in a romantic way, they’re different, but it’s hard for me to admit feelings towards my love for someone in either way.

I’m in love with the idea of love, but I’m too afraid of being heartbroken.