Well, hello there,
I thought it would be a while until our encounter. I thought I had plenty of time to figure out what I wanted from you.
Yet here I am.
Time flew past me at an unprecedented rate, leaving me completely unaware of you waiting for me in the distance. These days, as I go about my life, I always seem to catch a glimpse of you wherever I go and in whatever I do. Sometimes you seem proud and excited-I can tell because there's a smile crossing your face. Other times, you glance at me with disappointment, with tears welling up in your eyes. Don't worry, I am also aware of the negative impacts some of my decisions can have on you. I promise I am doing my best to make you proud, and to make myself proud in the process. You have to understand, college is tough, and even if I am getting good grades and moving forward in my academic field, I still am completely clueless as to what this means for me, for us.
What will you do with my diploma? Will it count for anything? Will you help me find a career that is well-deserved after all my years of hard work?
You don't have to answer these questions now. I'm just throwing them out into the void, letting them float within countless other questions and concerns from individuals just like me.
I do hope one day you will answer these questions for me, I would really like that. Possibly sometime after I graduate in a couple of years. I know we're not very close now, and I know I have disappointed you way too many times. I understand if you choose to not be kind to me when the time comes, yet I promise that from this moment on, I will do my best to make myself worthy of your time. Now, when you stand in the distance observing my every move, you will be taken aback by the progress that I have made, and by all the great accomplishments presented in front of you.
You see, you are what I have been striving for my entire life. I worked hard in high school to be accepted into a great university. Once I started college, I ran into quite a few low points; but you know that already considering every one of my faults had a direct impact on your well-being.
I'm sorry.
Nevertheless, after multiple changes to my academic career, I seem to have finally stumbled upon a path that I greatly enjoy; Writing.
I cannot tell you how much I love to write, and how long I've been aching to share all that's constantly shuffling back and forth within my imagination. Every time I write, I have you in the back of my mind. You are my end game, and I want only the best for you, just as I know, you want the best for me.
My dear future, I want to close this letter out by asking your forgiveness for my actions in the past, and hope that you see the potential in me.
I cannot wait to officially meet you; and when we do meet, please be kind to me.