I know you're up in heaven shining your light for the world to see. But I have a hard time because all of us wish it was you we were seeing. They always say the good ones die young, but you had so much ahead of you. I still struggle processing all of what happened last week and I thought getting my thoughts written would help. I hadn't talked to you in a long time. We all kind of just grew up. I don't know when you became an adult and got a job and bought a house. It all kind of just happened. But I don't really know you as the adult Andy.
I know you as the adventurous uncle that I looked up to as a kid. The uncle who played video games in the basement.... a lot. The uncle who had a moped in grandpa's garage that we weren't allowed to touch. The uncle who let me watch Little Rascals and Baby Huey in his bedroom almost every time I came over when I was younger. The uncle who had lots of Beanie Babies in his bedroom for a long time. I just can't believe you're gone.
I spent a lot of time at the funeral just remembering memories and stupid things that you had said over the years. Man you sure knew how to make people laugh with the things you said. You surely touched a lot of hearts in your life. The line of people coming to pay their respects never stopped. Six hours people lined up in that funeral home, there must have been at least one thousand people. You truly were loved by a lot of people. You will be missed beyond what you could have imagined.
While sitting in a chair at the funeral home looking at you, the thought came across my mind that I didn't remember the last time I told you I loved you. This hurt me to think about. I guess the saying really is true about telling people you love them because it might be the last time you do.
You were a great man. You had a good job, the truck of your dreams, a beautiful fiancé, a lot of friends, good co-workers, and a family that loved you very, very much. My heart still aches knowing that you're gone, but I know you're up there keeping Grandma Lil company.
Thanks for being that man you were. Love you. Rest in Peace <3 04/08/2016 Forever in our hearts
