I used to take it personally. That it seemed so easy to drift away from me. I couldn’t understand why or how after so many tears of laughter, and tears of pain that we shed together, that it could be completely forgotten and buried under all the new memories that you are making. You used to be a phone call away, and now it takes days for you to respond to a text to simple as “I miss you.” Everything we said that wouldn’t happen, slowly started happening. When we said goodbye I figured this wasn’t goodbye there is no way we could grow apart, but I didn’t know it was the beginning to an end.

But I did it too. I stopped responding. I stopped texting you everyday about every little thing that happened in my life, I got so wrapped up in the things that were actually around me instead of a life back home that I wasn’t apart of anymore. I started to be with the people that I saw everyday and slowly cherish the connection I had with my new friends. I used to read your messages and respond right away no matter what I was doing, but now it takes me a few hours or days to get back to you. And I hope you don’t take it personally. We should’ve known this was coming. It was easy at first to keep in touch and stay so close because everything was so new, we wanted to know everything that was happening. But soon enough everything that was new became routine. The new people we had in our lives became such an important part of it, that how we once couldn’t imagine life without each other we now can’t imagine life without them.

Remember when we would laugh when people always have told us that we should “enjoy our high school years?” I never fully got why people kept saying that. I mean yeah, high school was fun but we were so ready to grow up and move on and start working towards what we wanted to do. And that’s what we did. We grew up. For me I am not the same person I was when I packed up and moved hundreds of miles away from home. I bet you aren’t the same as when I left. You might be doing the same things but you aren’t the same. But that’s what they meant by enjoy your high school years. They wanted us to enjoy who we were at that time and the people we were around in that moment because you do grow up and grow apart. And although some friendships last a lifetime, most of them don’t.

Mostly I want to say I’m sorry. I could’ve done a lot more to keep in touch. But it’s hard to hear about and be thrown back into a life and a world that you aren’t apart of. It’s hard to finally get comfortable and take 5 steps forward with all the new amazing people in your life then get shoved back 15 steps and start missing the old people that you were once so close to. You start missing the old you and want to go back to the way things were, but you can’t. Still, I wish nothing but the best for you as you continue your journey and I continue mine. Hopefully our paths can cross again.

Sincerely your friend,