An open letter to the one who I thought I would never recover from...

I spent endless nights weeping over someone I loved with everything in me, it was never enough. I never actually believed a broken heart was so painful until I felt the pain for myself. The emotional pain was so intense it turned physical. There is no pain quite like a broken heart and the emptiness that comes along with it. I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. I spent most nights feeling sorry for myself, wondering why I was never enough for the only person I wanted. I wondered day in and day out why I didn't meet your standards and strained my brain wondering what I could have done differently to make you stick around. I gave so much love to you that I forgot to love myself. I blocked everyone out for you and that was no ones fault but my own. I laid on the bathroom floor so many times thinking "wow this has destroyed me", truth is it never actually did.

Here is the plot twist to this letter, Thank you. Thank you for breaking my heart because it made me the strong individual I am today. I spent so many nights feeling sad that I realized the only person who was capable of putting me back together wasn't you, it was ME. I slowly built myself back up from the ground and, eventually, I held my head higher than I ever had before. I learned to love myself again and I am shaped so wonderfully from being so broken at one point. I picked myself up, I counted my blessings, and i decided to not allow this to hurt me any longer. Although you broke my heart, it is now whole. I am whole.

Those nights I spent learning to love myself again I realized I never actually needed you, all I ever needed was myself. So once again, thank you to the one who shattered my heart because I am now more wise, strong, and blessed than ever.