When I first met you I didn't think you would become anything more than a face I met in a crowded room. Six months later and I find myself still wondering what we could have been. I never knew what to consider us so I refer to you as the one that got away, but it always sounds so cliche. I believe that everyone has their own version of you, the one wrapped up in what-ifs and day dreams and endless hope for a second chance. You used to joke about wanting an article written about you; well this one is for you and everything we could have been.
We started off on the wrong foo. I was on my high horse, constantly giving the "I don't want or need a boyfriend" speech to my friends and family who asked about you. I tried to convince myself that I didn't like you because I didn't want to like you. I wanted to give you a chance but every bone in my body was telling me not to because relationships always end with heartbreak and I didn't need that in my life. I couldn't convince myself to believe that you weren't going to hurt me, so instead I unintentionally hurt you.
I really am sorry for all of the dates I rejected. I told you that I was sick or already out to lunch with friends but maybe if I had just given you a few hours of my time things would have worked out differently. We could have gotten to know each other if I wasn't so guarded. All that you know about me is that I am indecisive, inconsistent and I have a history of failed almost relationships. I guess that's what you could consider us. You were the one that got away because I pushed you away. I wish that you believed in second chances because I think that things would be a lot different if we got to start over. But karma is a bitch.
We could have been 5 a.m. breakfasts at Waffle House and eight-hour car rides just so you could meet my family. We could have been rainy Sundays spent in bed and late Friday nights passing notes on bar napkins. We could have been weekend vacations at the beach and spontaneous road trips halfway across the country. We could have been so many things but instead, we are nothing.
A person can only do so much to try and make a bad situation better and I have done my fair share of trying. I wish that things had worked out differently because in my eyes we had so much potential. People will say that timing is everything when it comes to relationships, and we never seemed to have timing on our side. Maybe one day in a few years we will run into each other again and the timing will be right. But until then, if you are reading this just know that we could have been great. We still could be.
