Dear People Who Haven't Tried To Understand Me,
I'm so sorry that to you, my actions and thoughts have not made much sense. To you, it always seemed like I was 'overreacting' or thinking too deeply. To you, it seemed like my actions were pointless, that it had no benefit in my life. To you, I was a letdown, a disappointment.
But to me, my actions were/are making me happy, causing me to get up and fall down on my own time, teaching me to pick myself up. They may be stupid at times, but that's life. To me, my thoughts roar like the wildest of waters, crowding my head with ideas, opinions, and things I want to be spoken out into the world.
Some of you are older than me, claiming that I'm making wrong decisions and that things were different in your days.
However, of course, things were different. Times have changed, and I am nothing like you. I want to be my own person, figure out life on my own terms.
I know that some decisions I make are stupid or pointless, that's a given. My past experiences have made me who I am today, and everything I go through will do the same. I will only become stronger learning how this world works. I will be able to ready myself for (almost) everything this life throws at me.
I am not an easy girl to understand, and that's okay. Sometimes, I'll cry because I'm happy or laugh because I'm angry. I'll have panic attacks over the smallest details or be perfectly calm in horrific situations. Of course, making sense of that is hard, but if you try, I promise you'll be able to.
My intentions are never to hurt anyone, although sometimes it happens. I don't ever want that to happen on purpose, but when it does, I remember that you can't always make everyone happy with what you do. As much as I want everyone to 100 percent support every decision or thought I have, I know it doesn't go that way. I will have to accept backlash, upset opinions, or disconnection with people. As much as I will try to fix it, I can't fix everything.
I don't know where life will take me, what hard times will come in the future, or who will be by my side, but I hope that all of you will get to know me better and understand the wildfire that I am.
Sincerely,
The Girl You Don't Understand.
