To The One Who Knows My Heartbeat From The Inside,
We haven't met yet, but I have seen you. We haven't had a chance to exchange words yet, but I talk to you every single day. We haven't had the opportunity to touch one another yet, but I do anxiously await the moment I get to hold you in my arms. And although we have some time left before you officially enter this world, I am already in awe at the fact that I love someone who is still so tiny in such a huge and immeasurable way.
I wasn't planning on becoming your Mommy quite yet. There are still a lot of things I need and want to accomplish in my life. There are still a lot of things I need to get in order. But in no way, shape or form are you a mistake. You are a blessing. And you are turning out to be the biggest one in Mommy's life so far.
I've seen you in my belly. You're still so tiny. I've seen your heartbeat, and it's so strong. You already sound like one tough cookie, and Mommy couldn't be more proud. The moment I first got to see you, tears automatically filled my eyes. There you were. So tiny. And there I was, officially realizing that you were my creation. And from that moment on, you have become the most important person in my life.
People say that you should have it all together and all figured out before you decide to bring a child into this world. I used to be one of those people. But a baby isn't ever something that anyone could ever be completely 100 percent prepared for. You aren't going to come with instructions. I'm going to have to learn certain things about you on my own. And while I may stumble over a few things along the way, Mommy promises that you will always be loved and cared for no matter what
You and I have a special bond already. You're the only person who knows what my heartbeat sounds like from the inside. You're the only person who truly knows Mommy from the inside out. Pretty special, huh? Therefore, Mommy will always be the one to protect you and guide you in life. I will always do everything in my power to give you the very best that life has to offer. You aren't even in this world yet, and you've already became my entire universe.
I anxiously await everything that is going to happen over these next several months. I would be lying if I said I wasn't terrified, but you are my driving force. You are my motivation. I can't wait to see what you are going to look like and how your personality turns out. I can't wait to see if you're going to be a doctor or a school teacher. I can't wait to see if you're going to wear pink or blue. You are going to give Mommy so many firsts in her life. You are going to give Mommy the best moments in her life.
I hope I turn out to be everything you could ever hope to have as a Mommy. I know there will be days where you resent me. I did the same thing with your Nanny. But at the end of the day, as long as you know that Mommy loves you unconditionally, then I consider it a job well done on my part.
I'm so in love with you, and you aren't even here yet. I'm so worried about you, and you haven't even given me anything to worry about. I care about you so much, and you're still growing inside of me. We have the rest of our lives together now. And I can't wait for it to begin. I love you baby.
Sincerely,
Mommy
