Hey, it's me ... I know this may be a little awkward because I haven't kept in touch with you in awhile. All my goals and aspirations for 2015- I was so excited about you. I was gonna make this past year my best yet! “New Year, New Me!” I said. As time went by I guess things just came up and trying to resolve myself became harder and harder. There were things I promised to do- and I do them every now and then! But I know I could have done better by you. I guess I need to just get to the point. I'm writing this because I think it's time I let you go. 2016 is quickly approaching and it's time I make peace. I need to say goodbye to you and I know it might be hard, but here it goes:
Goodbye to going to the gym every day. It's unrealistic and I need to learn to love my body the way it is. I'll go sometimes, but to stress out about it just isn't worth it anymore. Goodbye to getting ahead on all my school work. I know this is a wonderful idea and all, but I'm just fine getting it done the night before it's due. I understand procrastination is not okay, but freaking out about assignments so long before they are due is exhausting. Especially when I know I can get them done the night before. Goodbye to skipping desserts. If I want to eat some ice-cream before bed I'm gonna do it! Sometimes I've had a rough day and need some dessert to cheer me up. I'm not gonna avoid it anymore. Goodbye to leaving people behind in the previous year. Everyone makes mistakes- I make mistakes. I believe that in this world anything is possible and even those you hate the most can become your best friends. I won't hold grudges and I'll let people back into my life if they seem trustworthy.
Goodbye to looking for a relationship. There is so much I need to focus on changing in my life and honestly I'm not sure if I'm ready for anything as serious as that. I know too many people burned out and stressed over people they love. I want to love myself before loving someone else. Finally, goodbye to acting more mature. There's so much time for me to act seriously. I will only be young for a short period of my life. I need to have fun, make memories, and meet people who will like me for being me. I don't need people in my life who will bring me down and dislike me for acting like a goofball. The people I want to be around won't necessarily act like me, but they will like me for being true to myself.
So this is where I leave you, resolutions of 2015- and don't worry! I won't be making any resolutions for 2016. I need to live my life by learning from my mistakes and learning as I go. I don't want to resolve the little things I don't like about myself, but learn to love them. I was trying to fix things that don't need fixing. Sometimes, to be truly happy you need to let go. So I'm letting go of my goals from 2015. Maybe some things will change in 2016, but only time will tell. I'm excited to see where the year takes me.
