Time check is 4:53 AM, I have just settled in bed with a bottle of "Jamaican Me Happy" and I'm anxiously beginning to type this out to you. Good Morning, I hope you've slept well- I know reading as soon as you've woken up isn't what you had in mind but bear with me, okay? I've never been too good with words and I know that when I try, I shy away and it's like I never began saying anything at all but I can write, and when I write, I'll be able to tell you all of the things my lips are too scared to whisper.
First and foremost, thank you.
I say thank you in the most emotionally vulnerable way. Thank you for taking your time on getting to know who I am- thank you for gradually opening up so I can know more of who you are. You are genuinely incredible and the more I know you, the more I fall in love with you. Since Freshman year, I could remember knowing of you but talking would've never been an option because I was shy and let's be honest here, baby, you were the bomb back then. You're smile absolutely puts me in a trance every time, your eyes make me forget what I was going to say next, the way you look at me makes my heart swell and you never fail to make me laugh after hearing your amazing laugh. Thank you for being here and always being patient.
So many things happened in the past-
I'm not perfect, trust me, I am far from being so. I don't want to be perfect though, I want to be honest and be vulnerable with you, I want to be myself. I flinch, I cry constantly, I get insecure and second guess myself but I promise I'll never second guess you. I promise to love you, genuinely and completely- I'll never let a day go by where you feel like you feel like you aren't. I promise to kiss your face including your big ole forehead and rub your beard while singing songs to you in the driver seat. I'll continue to teach you how to use and spot sarcasm while you teach me how to roll or whatever you'd like to teach me to do- each to their own interests!
I'm never going to let you go, darlin'
You make me smile, laugh and you never make me cry but you had caught a glimpse of me in a weak state and you didn't leave. You're showing me how to live life a step at a time while taking no crap from anyone else. You've showed me how to laugh at the people who can't seem to find something better to do with their days. You prove me to be more than I feel- you make me laugh more than The Office and that's just insanity! You've began to help me find the light that was stolen and sheltered away for so long. I'll spend the rest of our lives repaying you, my love. Have an amazing day, you deserve it.
Te amo, más de lo que la luna ama al sol.
Sincerly,
Your lil baby
