When it all started, I had no idea that it would turn into what it has. I had no idea that I was even capable of caring about someone as much as I care about you. I didn't know that you were going to make such a lasting impression on my life. Who would've guessed that one day at the zoo would be the beginning of my favorite chapter of my life so far.
I quickly found so many qualities you possessed that I adored. Your sarcasm is up to par and I'm always guaranteed a laugh when I talk to you. You are so intelligent and intelligence is such an attractive quality. You do little things to prove that you're a gentleman and it's just habit for you. You have opinions and you back them. I won't even get into your looks, but I'm convinced that your smile can make anything 10x better.
The feeling you give me is unreal. It doesn't matter if we haven't seen each other in months, we always pick up where we left off and we always seem to keep in touch somehow. You are everything I want and need. Until you, I never understood the feeling of saying goodbye to the only person you want to be with. Now I understand clearly.
The relationship we had ended so calmly and yet it was the hardest break up ever. I was hoping that maybe, just maybe, you would talk me out of it. I wanted you to tell me that it was worth it to you, that I was worth it. I just wanted some kind of confirmation that you felt the way I did.
You let go and made it look so easy.
Now I've been living every day still wanting you to be along with me. I keep my options open and don't give people a chance; just waiting for you. It's time for me to move on. It's time for me to give other people a chance. It's time for me to delete the memories and quit re-living time with you. It's time for me to smile more and laugh louder.
I'm moving on with confidence that if it's meant to be, it will be. Maybe in the future, our paths will cross again, but please only intervene if you know what you want. Please only stop me if you want it as bad as I did.
Until then, this is me flipping the page, in search of a new favorite chapter.
