We have all been in a relationship that we believed would last a lifetime. A lot of "I love you" and "forever and always." You were completely attached to each other. He wouldn't go out without you with him- going on lunch dates, ice cream or even adventuring somewhere in the woods, getting lost in every moment together and forgetting the whole world. He made all of your favorite holidays the most memorable. He even surprised you with that bracelet you've been wanting for so long. He got you a charm for every occasion and you can even remember the order you got them in.
You can't forget his family. They treated you so well. They took you on vacation, let you sleepover and even made up silly nicknames for you. You felt so comfortable for once in your life. You felt so welcome and happy.
Now what? Things changed just as fast as they started. Suddenly the "I love you" turns into "you're not what I want anymore." How do you just forget everything you went through? How do you just forget all the happiness you had when it all comes crashing down? It hurts. To think that you were someone's everything to being told you're not. It's hard to let go of everything he did.
You've had many sleepless nights where you just laid there thinking of where you went wrong. You cry a lot. You pretty much don't want anything to do with anyone but him. But he doesn't want to talk to you. Your friends force you to get out and have fun but nothing is fun anymore. You see him and he passes you as if you're a ghost. Not a smile, a wave or a hug. Just walks passed you as if you never meant a thing.
This is real. This is the time you realize it's over. You need to let go. It's clear that you may never be completely over him, but you need to try. You try to find him in every guy you talk to. You find someone, someone amazing. He treats you like a princess, shows you off to his friends and wants nothing but to spend all of his time with you. Well doesn't that sound perfect?
No. Because you are still thinking of HIM. You finally have what you really deserve but you can't accept it because it isn't who you really want. You need to stop this. This boy in front of you knows you're broken. He's there to fix your broken pieces and you aren't letting him. For what reason? Because you're waiting for that boy who isn't coming back to you.
You need to learn that you deserve the best. There is a boy willing to do anything for you and your mind is stuck in the past. The past is the past and you need to leave that be. You have a future ahead of you whether it be with this new boy or not. This boy deserves a chance. He deserves you to be all in. That boy in the past doesn't deserve you anymore, but someone else does. It is time for you to move on and be happy again.
As the country band Rascal Flatts says in one of their songs, "For once I'm at peace with myself. I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long, I'm movin' on."
