Dear Old Friend,

I would like to start by saying I'm sorry. I’m sorry I pushed you away and I'm sorry that our friendship ended. Although as of now, I'm not as sorry. I like where my life is right now and I wouldn't want that to change, whether it be with you or without you in it. I'm aware that I may not be the easiest person to get along with at times or the most problematic human out there, but I was always a damn good friend. No matter how close we were, being a good friend was always my top priority. I’m sorry you couldn't see that.

I never meant to hurt you. Probably, just how you never meant to hurt me. Things happen and people change. Some for the better and some for the worst. With every friend I've ever lost; it hurt, some more than others. It feels like a knife being thrown into your back and having it be dragged across.

I hate that you picked someone else over me. I hate that you made our friendship a choice. I especially hate how it all ended in the blink of an eye. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss what we had. But nothing will ever be the same as it was, not even close. Isn't it funny how we ranted together about how life wanted us to be friends yet all this hit us like a ton of bricks?

Then there's the parts that I don't miss. Sure, we had fun together and spent a lot of time side by side, but the relationship was toxic. With every fight we always came crawling back to each other. At the end of the day, it came to be too much. What was the point if all we do is fight? I'm sorry our friendship ended the way it did, but in all honesty I'm glad it happened. I'm happier now and I'm sure you are too. I’m glad I moved on and turned my cheek.

It pains me to admit that I still keep myself updated on your life. It’s not even that I care at this point, it's just interesting to see what you have done without me in your life. I'm happy that you finally moved on. You have your own group of friends and I have mine. Life is better that way. We were meant to split up and find our own path. Hey, as the saying goes; all good things must come to an end.

With that being said, I do want to say that I definitely don't regret not fixing things this time around. You knocked me down but I came back stronger, and I wanted to thank you for making me the strong, confident person I am today. Even though my detestation toward you right now is high, I do hope you achieve greatness in your life. I hope that you find an amazing friend and I hope that you have a great future.

Sincerely,

The friend you left behind