The word-vomit I'm about to spew might be a lot, but it's been on my mind for a long time and it needs to be said. You were the friend who made me wake up excited for your arrival and the friend I could start our crazy day of laughter, gossip, and taco bell with.

Our friendship seemed so forever, so absolutely perfect.

Until...

We both know the day. We both know the story. And yet you swear nothing has changed. I lay awake at night just hoping that you'll come back to the self you used to be. To the old days where we could drive with the windows down and "Rivers and Roads" by The Head and The Heart blasting. Unlike now where I get tense just hearing that song because I know it'll make me cry thinking of you I wish I had back.

I've tried so hard to ignore the situation, I've done what I can. But at the end of the day, you've turned into a toxic person and the situation has consumed you in the worst way. So I had to what was right for my life and let your beautifully lost soul go. I wish with all my heart that I could stay friends with you, but it seems that even the people in my life have noticed that having you in my life has weight so heavy on my heart.

So all I can say is this, I hope with all my heart that you can find yourself again. I hope with all my heart that you choose to leave, that you choose to define yourself outside of the horrible situation that you are in. I hope that someday after all is said and done we can be friends again. But until then, I must say goodbye to someone I thought was going to be my forever best friend. I will always love you and care for you, but for now, I need to choose to focus on myself. And I can't fully do that with you in my life.

Best regards,

Your old best friend.