Dear the boy who was too blind to see what was in front of him,
“Best friend”...you called me your best friend and after that moment I knew my efforts had been for no reason. At that moment, the images of lazy days, and celebrating anniversaries with you were erased. Maybe it was for the best, or maybe that’s just what I’m telling myself. All I can know for certain is that you belong with me.
Since you have other plans in mind for “us," I would just like to say a few things:
Thank you for thinking so highly of our friendship, but I want a little more. Thank you for being there for my good days, but also for my bad ones. We laugh, we argue, we embrace who each other really are. I wish you could see that I am waiting for the cheesy 90’s romantic comedy movie moment where you realize you’ve loved me the whole time. Do you even notice me?.. or are you too busy blabbing about the other girls you want to be with as I nod and pretend like nothing is wrong. Everything is wrong, hello I'm right in front of you, why can’t you love me? Of course, I would never tell you any of this because what we have now is too good. We hang out every day, but you think nothing of it, I know your secrets and you know mine, but we’re just friends.
Everyone around us can see it but you, why can’t you open your eyes. Laughs come from my friends as they call you my “boyfriend” or ask when we’re going to date, because we’d be the cutest couple. Little do they know, you’ve friend-zoned me without even knowing, and it hurts. You've disregarded the possibility of what could have been because we’ve known each other for a while. But don’t you worry about me, other girls are in my position too and it’s reassuring to know I’m not alone, even though you’re the only one I want by side.
Maybe just being friends won’t be too bad. But don’t even think about asking my thoughts on another girl because I will be brutally honestly, you deserve the best and if it’s not coming from me, I have to make sure she is no different. I shouldn’t care, but I do. You stole my heart and before that, you were my friend. So thank you for still being in my life because despite it all, your friendship matters to me.
Sincerely,
The girl you think of as only a friend
