Dear Past Love,
Gorgeous green eyes, captivating smile, you were everything I wanted. When I met you for the first time, I was immediately drawn in. I knew then that there was no going back. Little did I know, my life was about to be turned upside down. You had a past, and so did I. For years I had my guard up, but I trusted you. So, I let you in. I have vivid memories of us taking long walks as the sun would set, laughing and holding hands while we talked about life and how beautiful it is. Every once in a while, you would take a second just to stop and smile at me. It was in those moments I began to fall more and more in love with you.
I remember those summer nights when we would lay in the grass and look up at the sky. I’d sing to you, and you listened to every word. With your arms wrapped around me, I felt protected. I felt loved. The sound of your laugh and your kind words will be with me for the rest of my life. I can’t even begin to describe the impact you had on me, and when you walked away from me, I was broken beyond repair.
As time went on, things changed, like most things do. You began to become distant, and I couldn’t explain why. With each passing day, I could feel you falling out of love with me. I spent a lot of time in my room crying and trying to figure out what I did wrong, but I could never understand. Looking into your eyes, I could see that you weren’t the same. With the progression of time, you turned into someone I did not recognize. Underneath that gorgeous smile, you had a cold, very distant soul.
You didn’t want anything to do with me, and it ripped me from the inside out. How could someone change in such a short amount of time? Maybe it was my fault. Maybe I didn’t love you like I should have. Maybe I just wasn’t good enough for you. These thoughts haunted me for days, weeks and continued into months. Even though you didn’t want to know me anymore, I still wanted to know you. The old you.
It’s been two years since we have talked, and I’m doing OK. I finally decided to let go because holding on to you was damaging my heart and mind. I don’t know if we will ever meet again, but I wish you the best. I hope you find happiness, even if it is with someone else. And although we have a flawed past, I’d like to thank you for all the memories, the good and the bad. Because after all, it made me who I am today.
Sincerely,
The Girl You Once Loved
