My heart can’t help but skip a beat when I think about you. I think about what we could’ve been. I think about the times that we spent laughing at something that wasn’t even that funny. I think about the times that we spent having deep conversations, something we never would’ve done. I think about what we could’ve had.

But then I remind myself that I can’t have you.

I can’t have you because someone else does. I can’t have you because you don’t feel the same way. I can’t have you because of the distance.

I think that’s what hurts the most. Because everything that should have been has turned into everything that could have been.

We will never get the chance to see what we could be. We will never get the chance to go on more dates or to explore the city together.

Because now you are doing that with her.

I mean I really do hope you are happy with whoever she is. I hope that even if you aren’t seeing someone, that you are happy with whatever you do in life. I hope that you get to experience everything you ever wanted to and I hope you enjoy life for what it is.

In all honesty, it sucks. It sucks that I’m not the girl that gets to make you happy anymore. It sucks that I’m not the one that you go to when something is wrong. It sucks because it feels like you forgot that I exist.

I think the worst part of all of this is that we never got to give this thing a shot. We never got to figure out if we could’ve been something more. We never got to take this out of the “thing” stage.

In the end, I wish that you end up happy. I really do think that you deserve the best.

But I also wish that we could’ve tried, you and me. I wish that it was me instead of her. I wish that I was the one making you laugh. I wish that I was the one holding your hand and the one that you got to crawl into bed with.

But then again, that will never happen.

So I guess all I wanted to say was that I do wish you the best of luck and I hope you are happy, even though it kills me to know that I will never get to have you.