To the best friend I lost contact with,
Hey, how are you today? I hope that you are doing well. I am doing pretty well. I hope your classes are going well. What major are you doing again? I’m sure that you are doing great in whatever you are doing. It’s been a while since we last spoke, if I’m correct. Over a year, if I have to be exact. It’s been over a whole year since we have confided in each other. It’s been over a year since we would call or Skype each other and laugh all night. It’s been over a year, and I just want to tell you that I miss you, but I’m moving on.
We were inseparable when we were in high school, all four years of it. Yes we had our disagreements and our fights, but you were truly my one best friend in high school. We had lunch together all four years, and we did projects together when we could. We went on field trips together, we complained about certain teachers together. We fan girl-ed together over certain bands. We introduced each other to different types of music. You introduced me to my first ever boyfriend and we went on double dates. We went through new relationships and break ups together. Yet, now I hear that you are engaged, and I had to hear from the grapevine, not from your mouth.
What happened to us? Why did you stop texting me? Why did you stop answering my texts and calls? Do you hate me or something? Did you forget about me? That hurts if you did, because I can never forget you. You are a very essential part of my teenage and young adult life. You showed me what a true friend is. Yet here you are treating me like a stranger. I ask you if you are alright, but you ignore me. You really hurt me. I have cried over you, trying to figure out ways to let you go. Yet I can’t. I sit alone sometimes and I think, “Did you ever really care about me?” I guess not. I wonder how it would make you feel if you knew what I have gone through this past year and how much I needed you there for me. You weren’t. I had to learn to cope without you. I found another way, and I am super happy I did.
I have made the greatest friends here in college. Many of them have had my backs from day one. It took me a very long time to realize it, because I was so stuck on keeping things inside. When you left, they were there to pick up my broken pieces; someone to just listen to me as I rant, someone to hold me when I’m crying and someone to reassure me that everything is going to be OK. They have given me true friend love that you had once given me. I have slowly come to realize that I am going to be just fine without you in my life.
I did not write this letter to spite you or get attention from you. I wrote this letter for closure for myself. This might be the last time I think of you or it might not be, but I do know that after this letter, I will be OK again. I have let you go. I do want you to know that if you do want to come back in my life, you are surely welcome into it. I may have let you go, but I will never forget the good times we had together. I love you,so very much. For right now though, this is goodbye.
Your Best Friend,
Esosa Oghide
