To My Mom As I’m Growing Up,
I’ll start off by saying you were right. About everything. Every piece of advice that you ever gave me was right. And I wish I had listened to more of what you told me. I still call and ask for your advice on basically everything, but it’s just not the same as talking to you in person and getting a big hug afterwards. I miss you more than I thought I would when I left for college. The whole transition has been harder than I ever imagined, and not seeing you and Dad everyday has made it even worse.
I want you to know that I’m doing okay without you. Somehow everything you’ve taught me about life is actually sticking with me and I’m surviving here with out you. Don’t get me wrong it’s still hard sometimes; especially when I’m sick and you’re not here to give me the right kind of medicine. It’s also hard not having you around when I want watch a Hallmark movie or go shopping on a Sunday. I miss watching Grey’s Anatomy, Revenge, and Hawaii Five-O with you; it was something I looked forward to every week. Even though I hated getting up for school every morning, it was always better getting to talk to you before my day started.
I’ve been studying hard at college not just to get a proper education and a career, but also to make you and Dad proud. Being able to show you good grades on tests, or telling you that I made the Dean’s List makes the countless hours lost studying worth it. College is a lot harder than I thought it would be, but you always taught me not to give up on what I want, and that life gets hard but you just have to take it one day at a time. So here I am, one day after another spending countless hours at my desk plugging numbers into my calculator trying to comprehend all of my Calc II lessons.
School has been harder than just schooling though. Being five hours away from home is so much harder than I thought it was going to be, but you raised me to have faith in myself, and my decisions. And that is what I’m trying to do, but everything is easier said than done. You were always on my side whenever I made a decision, and I know that you still are, but it’s different now that you aren’t just downstairs. I’ve made some great friends here and they make the dorms feel like a home away from home, but nothing can replace the smell of pancakes in the morning, or snuggling up to a good book in the front room and listening to you, Dad, and Kevin yelling at the announcers during football season.
I know that as I’m getting older and more mature that I’m going to need you less and less on a daily basis; but I want you to know that no matter how old we get I will always be your baby girl. I’ll always need you when I’m going through a huge struggle. You’ll always be my mom. In short, I want to thank you for everything you’ve ever given up for me. I know that sometimes I’ve been more of a pain in your ass, but I wouldn’t be the woman that I am today without you and your unconditional love. I hope that I’m making you proud, and that I continue to make you proud throughout the rest of my life. I love you.
-You Annoyingly Lovable Daughter
