Dear Mom,
Being 227 miles away from you is very hard sometimes. As you have told me many times, "Life is full of peaks and valleys". Sometimes there are high points and sometimes there are low points, and there sadly isn't anything we can do about it but lift ourselves up again. College has been a rough transition for me, and I've hit such a low that I did not know who else to turn to. All I want is to come home and give you a giant hug, cry to you, and have you tell me that everything will be okay.
There have been moments the past few months that I have hidden from you, and I thought you might be disappointed that I was not having the time of my life in college, but I know this is impossible. I know that you are always here for me and want the best for me, no matter what. I should not ever hide anything from you, as your my mom, nor shroud the truth to make it seem like I'm okay.
Your wisdom has always been admired by me, and your advice is always something I take highly into consideration. You seem to have all the answers, and talking to you about my problems always seems to help. The biggest decisions are always left up to my judgement, and even though I wish that you would just tell me what to do. I know there is value in making these choices on my own, but sometimes it is just so very hard.
It's harder now to talk to you, as texting and calling you are not enough sometimes. All of my strongest relationships are through the phone, and I wish I could change that. There are many times that I wish I had you or Dad physically with me so I may be able to find comfort. Being 4 hours away from my family is the hardest thing I've ever had to do, and I didn't realize that I relied on your love so much. As excited as I was to get away, all I seem to want to do is come back home.
I hope to be the kind of mom that you are. You always comfort me when I need it, and we have a very tight bond. As always, sometimes you make me go completely crazy, but your rules are never out of bounds. I hope to share the same wisdom and advice with my children someday, and I will never forget how those conversations shaped me into the person I am today. I have grown into such a strong woman due to the way you have raised me.
Talking to you on the phone for over an hour today didn't necessarily make me feel better. It made me feel loved and supported, which is more than I could have ever wanted. Just being able to hear your voice telling me stories of your past that related to my current struggles made me realize that I am not the first person to go through this. I can make it through anything, and you are my main rock through all of it.
Love,
Noelle
