Dear high school friends,

Hi there. I really haven’t spoken to any of you guys in a while. We would always tell each other that we would keep in touch after high school, but we all knew that, or at least I knew that, that was not going to happen, which honestly made me sad. The fact that we spent an entire high school year together but did not end up keeping in touch makes me so sad. I was depressed by that future even before graduation, because I just knew that we weren’t going to make an effort to talk to each other. We probably made some more awesome college friends, and are having an awesome time at college. But sometimes, I just really miss my high school, and all the memories we have shared together. And those memories would want me to text you guys and just catch up, but I stop myself because I don’t want to be that “needy” friend.

Are we all thinking the same way? Is that why we don’t really keep in touch anymore after high school? I honestly really want to know. Although I have made some great college friends, I have actually spent more time with you guys in high school, and I just feel uncomfortable starting the conversation first.

I mean, we like each other’s posts on Facebook and Instagram but never really a talk. And it just makes me so sad how distance can make our friendships just disappear slowly…And sometimes I wonder, “does that mean we weren’t really friends? What is even the definition of friendship?” While I am looking through my yearbook and read all the cute comments you guys wrote on the back of the yearbook, I constantly remind myself that we were truly good friends back then. Well…at least hopefully we were.

I am always scared to ask you guys to hang out over the break. Now that I think about it, only people I ask to hang out over the break happens to be…just friends that I have spent the most time. On Facebook, we are always like “omg, we should definitely hang out this winter break” but when the winter break actually comes, we don’t hang out, because no one initiate the meeting. Of course, it is also my fault because I don’t initiate the meeting either, but again, I feel like I am being that “needy” friends asking to hang out. Am I the only one who misses y’all? Or do all people feel the same way of not wanting to be that “needy” friend?

I get so excited over the break to relax and planning to meet all of my high school friends, but the reality is, I am just in my room watching Netflix. I want to ask you to hang out with me. I would just totally enjoy a cup of coffee in Starbucks and just chat. I want to watch a movie with you. Or I would just love to get some Chick-Fil-A Sandwich with you and catch up with you. I want to just see all of your faces. But…I am scared to ask. You guys are my friends, but I am scared to be “that” person. But at the same time, I realize that we just can’t avoid that situation. One of them has to initiate the conversation, and if we all don’t want to be “that” person, I guess it’s not going to work out. And I knew, from our high school graduation, that the exact situation that I am currently mentioning is going to happen, which made me really bit sad before my graduation. I was definitely excited to go to college, but at the same time, because I knew I would lose some great friendship, I was depressed too.

What are you guys doing right now? I am sure we have started our new years at college again, and excited to meet our college friends again. But at the same time, it would be great if you could just take the time to remember me, remember our old friends, and remember our memories. I mean, we did spend quite bit a time together right? Hopefully next time, I have the courage to ask you guys to just chat and catch up, even for a little bit.

Love,

Your high school friend.