To my ex's family,

I don't even know where to begin. It's been a very long time since we've spoken, but if I'm being completely honest I think about talking to you every day.

There's just so much I want to say and so much I want you to understand, but every day I resist the urge because I know that I have lost my place in your lives.

I just want to say I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I hurt him. I know that I did, and it hurts me knowing that I caused someone the pain that I did. And I know that there is the possibility that you might see me now as this terrible person who never deserved him, but I hope that you don't.

He is a great person, I can admit that. But he hurt me too. I never felt more pain than I did when he left me, so much pain that my body started to ache. Despite the crash and burn ending, I loved every minute of being with him and getting to know the amazing person that he is. I loved him with every piece of me.

He taught me so much about myself when we were together, and even after we broke up. I can honestly say that he made me a better person; he made me want to be a better person. I hope that you know that you raised an amazing man, and I cannot wait to see where he goes in life.

I miss you every day. I miss getting to know you all. I miss the conversations we had. You always made me laugh. You always made me think. I learned so much not only about you and your family but about the world, just by talking to you.

Thank you for feeding me. I was never short on food, ever. But the fact that you would always take he and I to dinner was so nice. I felt like a burden because it was like you had another child, and therefore another mouth to feed. But still--a year later-- I think about paying you back.

I hope that all is well. I hope that you are happy. I hope that your dog is doing great. I miss him too and I will be heartbroken when he's gone. So I hope that you have many more days with him.

Thank you for being my second family. Thank you for being some of the first people I would tell exciting news. There's so much happening in my life that I want to tell you about, but I know that it doesn't matter anymore.

I wish we were on better terms, I really do. But being friends with your ex's family is harder than being friends with your ex. So just know that I appreciated everything you did for me. I hope that you are all well. I hope to someday see you in the future. I hope that when you think of me you think good thoughts.

Thank you. For everything.