An Open Letter to my Aunt in Heaven,
Hey Auntie J,
I called to talk to you the other day, but Papa said you were out with friends and I thought nothing of it and hung up the phone patiently waiting for a call back. Later that day I found out that I would never get a call back from you that day, or ever again, that was the day that you unexpectedly left us and went up to heaven. Hearing the words from my dad “Auntie J died this morning” are words that cut my insides like knives every time I look back to that day. Because that day I not only lost my Aunt, I lost my best friend.
You struggled with many things in your life, one of them being addiction. This made people think so differently of you, kind of like you were a bad person, and yes some days I thought the decisions you made were stupid and selfish, but you were still my best friend. Sometimes I still go into my contacts and look at my phone, forgetting that I can’t call you to catch a movie or go to lunch. Those are the times that I will miss the most.
I remember having movie nights with you, but we could never decide on a movie because we were both so indecisive, so by the time we picked a movie, 3 hours had gone by and it would be too late to watch one. I will also miss driving you around everywhere, as annoying as I thought it was at the time, I do miss getting late night calls from you asking for a ride to random places that I have never even heard of.
Our car rides were the best because we would both just sing at the top of our lungs, not judging each other for how bad our voices are. But the thing I will miss most is being crazy with you, no one else in the family is crazy like you, so it was nice to be able to joke with someone. I miss you so much it hurts, but I know I need to be strong because that is what you would want me to do.
I wake up every day, not sad; but happy because I know that it is one day closer to me being able to have movie nights, and to joke around with you again. I hope you are having the time of your life, and watching over me every day.
Until we meet again, I love you.
Love your best friend,
Emily
