There comes a point in life where you have to analyze who is in your life because they care, and who is in your life when it is only convenient for them. Many people come and go throughout our journeys, but not many of them stay.
This letter isn’t directed towards a specific person. It is directed to every person that at some point or another was very important to me and for some reason, no longer is. You were someone I thought I could count on. I not only confided in you, but I trusted you with my heart. At some level, perhaps we are still friends, but it will never be the same as it once was.
It probably never will be; so here is a letter to you:
You were once the air I breathe. You were my counterpart and my sidekick. Sure, we got into petty fights, but nothing that completely altered our friendship. You meant too much to me to risk sacrificing what we once had. Unfortunately, I could not say the same for you for whatever reason. Situations arise, and misfortunes come and go. However, at one point, one of us stopped trying, and neither wanted to glue the broken pieces of our friendship back together. I’m not blaming you, but I wanted to let you know how much it hurts to know you didn’t even try.
I tried to give you the benefit of the doubt and considered reconciling with you to make amends. However, we both know that when something is broken, it's broken for good. We could have tried to glue the pieces of our broken friendship back together, but it would have never been in the condition that it once was. I realized that there was no point putting effort into a friendship that wouldn’t mutually return the favor.
Although it hurts knowing our friendship wasn’t worth saving, I do hold dear to the good memories that we both once shared together. You still hold a special place in my heart that no one else can replace.
Sometimes, it's hard to believe just how much has really changed between us when I go back and look at all of the photos that we took together. They remind me of the good memories, and that is something I can cherish forever. When I look at them, I can't help but wonder if you feel a fraction of what I feel. A part of me hopes that you will pick up the phone and call and say that you miss me. Even though our friendship isn’t intact at the moment, I would still be willing to try again. Because after everything, that’s how much you mean to me.
There are many things that we will never receive closure for in life. One thing that you should never leave open-ended is friendships. There is a point in your life when you get tired of trying to fix everything and trying to make everyone happy. When you finally decide to quit, it’s not giving up. It's realizing you don’t need certain people and the energy they bring to your life. Relationships come and go, but I expected you to be the one constant person in my life. No matter what length of time passes, I want you to know that I still care about you, and I will always be here for you if you need anything. I'm not going to put my life on hold for you, though. All I want for us both is to be truly happy because, in the end, that’s what all true friends want for each other right?
Sincerely,
Your Almost Best Friend
