Having a sister is a treasure that I took for granted most of my life. You and I fought all the time- physically and verbally. While growing up, the fights got worse and our parents didn't know what to do to make us get along.
After I moved away to college, our relationship changed completely. We talked more often, spent time together out of the house when I was in town. You texted me about school and boys and everything that our parents were doing that irritated you. I loved it. I felt like we finally got along and that you felt like you could tell me anything. I was finally trusted with your secrets. I wasn't shut out anymore. You wanted to come see me at school to get out of the house. You called for help with chemistry problems. We talked almost everyday. Then, just as sudden as before, it did a complete 180 again.
You were just starting your freshman year of college. So I understood when the calls and texts came further and further apart. You were adjusting and figuring things out for yourself. I read about what was going on in your life through social media. Heard things from mom and dad. When we did talk, we got into arguments or it escalated to more. I came to visit and things were great for the whole weekend then it ended on a sour note with a big fight.
Little sister, I know we are going to have our fights. I know there's going to be times that you don't want to tell me things happening in your life. I know you want to keep some secrets to yourself. But please know that I hate fighting with you just as much as I hate that we don't talk as often. I really enjoy spending time with you in whatever way I can. I want to know what's going on in your life. I don't want to hear about it from mom and dad. As mom has always said we will always have each other. Mom and dad, sad to say it- are not going to be around forever. We need to have each others backs and be there for each other no matter what.
I know I don't say it very often but I do love you little sister. Everyday I think of how I can be a better influence on you and how to be a better big sister. I know you're scared of disappointing me and the family. But my biggest fear is disappointing you as your older sister. Your opinion of me matters more than you really think. I'm always going to be here for you to talk to. I hope you know that you can always talk to me about absolutely anything or nothing. I value our friendship more than any others. Other friends may come and go, but you will always be there.
