Consider yourself the luckiest person alive. Standing in front of you is the most amazing human being you will ever lay your eyes on. If you intend on loving her, there are some things you should know about her first...
She isn't an object. I know she is beautiful; hell, she is the most attractive girl you will ever meet, but she is not there to gawk or drool over. She isn't your story to tell your friends, don't talk about her body to them... That is yours to see - if she decides she is comfortable with you seeing it. You are not worthy of it and don't convince yourself you are. No one is. She isn't a trophy, but don't touch the glass. Don't leave your dirty fingerprints on her skin - don't even dare. She is a diamond in a sea of rocks, and you don't deserve her. Don't use her for your sexual desires, she is more than that. She is a woman with a heart of gold and she will treat you like royalty if you let her.
She is broken. She is one of the strongest women you will ever meet, but she has walls that go all the way to the edge of the milky way. Don't take a wrecking ball to them, she isn't yours to wreck. Her heart is in many pieces and if one of them decides to love you, you best be damned proud to hold even the smallest piece of that beautiful heart. She is a stained glass window and each piece of shattered glass that falls to the floor you best be picking up and holding them close. She won't admit she wants you to love her and she won't admit that you mean something to her. But if you leave those pieces on the cold stone floor, she will implode and her anger can burn brighter than a supernova. But God, she is beautifully flawed, and she will never get angry for no reason. Don't leave her in the dust, don't let her believe you don't care. If you don't love her and all of her pieces, someone else will. If it doesn't burn like whiskey going down your throat when you watch her cry, leave before she falls in love with you. Do not let her love you if you don't intend to stay.
She enjoys the little things in her life. There are very few things that make her smile that gorgeous smile. Let her take control of the music you play in the car, even if it isn't music you like. Watch her eyes light up when her favorite dance song comes on. She will make you laugh until you can't breathe with her crazy dancing in the passenger seat of your beat-up car. Hold her hand, feel her playing piano scales against your knuckles. Sing along to her crazy music; it makes her smile. Don't let her go to sleep angry. Her anger burns holes in her throat and she can't afford another reason to not breathe. If you even dare lay next to her while she's angry, apologize and swallow your pride. She is worth more than your incessant need to be right. Apologize until she rolls over and stares at you with those baby blues and you can see the hope shining through them again. Don't forget you love her. She is worth the arguments.
Show her how much you love her. Hold her hand in public, kiss her goodbye. Tell her you love her when you hang up the phone and don't get angry if she gets shy with her emotions... She isn't good at showing them. Just know, if she chooses you, you are always on her mind. She will love you with all she has once she is able to let herself love you. Be patient and know you have the most amazing girl on your arm, and no matter what, you can't let that go. She is one in a million, and if you're stupid enough to let that go, well... Don't be.
Keep her safe... I'm begging you. She's really important to me and I will never stop loving her. I can't. But if you get to love her, please love her harder. Please keep her stable. Keep her happy.
Sincerely,
The Girl Who Loved Her First
