I Am Not My Past
Start writing a post
Health and Wellness

I Am Not My Past

And neither are you.

I Am Not My Past

Isn't it funny how the unexpected things can be the most inspirational?

I was sitting in my Spanish Grammar class today. I was listening to my professor who was giving us a preview of a writing assignment. He pointed out the word "borrador."

"Does anyone know what that means?" After being met with silence and avoidant eye contact, he explained that it was the Spanish word for "eraser."

He went on to explain how in this context, it was about a draft.

"It's the word eraser because it is a draft. It's not pretty. It's all the ugly stuff and it's going to be a mess. But it's okay because even if all the words aren't put together correctly the first time, they are your thoughts and what is inside your head. It's only a draft that can always be erased. It's not the final product."

Here he was talking about Spanish grammar and I was like Ah! Wow! That is just like life...and us!

There will always be judgmental people in the world, and they will always meet you at different points in your life. Sometimes they will enter during your lowest moments. Those people may then try to come in and believe they know everything about you and everything you've been through. When in reality, they don't have any idea who you are and what or where you've come from.

I'm sure we can all identify a period or time in our lives, no matter how short or long, that was a mess. It was the ugly stuff that brought out the shadows and the worst in us. We didn't feel like ourselves. And we think in our heads, "Wow, I wish I didn't make those choices. I wish I could go back and do it over again. It doesn't even feel like that was me. I tried and went about it all wrong. I totally missed it. I blew it."

Real talk alert: We all need to stop letting the negativity in our pasts define who we are today. And also, if not more importantly, we need to hold the same attitudes for those around us. Stop the judgment. You, me, and everyone else in the world, we ALL have a first draft. Some of us have a second, a third, a fourth, a fifth, etc.. It is not pretty. It is ugly and it is a mess. But you know what?

It's okay. It really is. Because the great thing about life is you don't have to get everything right the first time. All the pieces of the puzzle that are your thoughts, dreams, ambitions, and actions do not need to fit together perfectly on the first attempt. The chapter you are in is not your final copy. You can go back and erase, rewrite, and edit. You can add and take away. You can change the color, the mood, the setting, the tone.

At the end of the day, those dark chapters and difficult times are the ones who made you into the person you are today. One who is stronger. You are the only one who understands what you have been through.

Be encouraged and do not allow your borrador to be your completed work in yourself. Reread, edit, make changes and write again. And as for the judgment?

Erase it. You don't have room in your book for it.

Much love,

Patricia XOXO

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.

To My Fellow Girls With Resting B**** Face

A letter to my friends with RBF about understanding your own face and helping others deal with it.

Jupe du Jour

To the girl with resting b**** face:

Keep Reading... Show less

The Boyfriends Of The 2000s

Thank you, J14, for the Posters

J14 magazine

Every girl remembers her first crush. Even if your first crush was the boy in your kindergarten class that ate crayons, your first true love will always be the one that holds the key to your heart. Growing up in the 2000s, everyone knew who your dream guy was. Your family probably still give you grief and your best friends probably still reminisce, so it is impossible to forget your first celebrity crush. You bought a Tiger Beat magazine every chance you could just to read up about what your favorite celebrity was doing. Your room was fully decorated with posters of them, and it wasn't unusual to have fights with your best friends over who was going to marry him. If you were a 90's baby, lucky you because the 2000s were full of boys that were easy to love. I hope you enjoy a walk down memory lane and quickly realize that Bieber was definitely not the first guy with that hair cut. Here are 15 90's baby's first boyfriends.

Keep Reading... Show less
Student Life

20 Things I Learned By The Start of My 20s

No one expects you to have your life together by the time you're 20, because honestly, they didn't either.

Allyson Foutty

We are all often faced with many life challenges throughout the time leading up to our 20s. Before this time, and throughout it, we often look back at the things we've learned and how they've influenced who we are as people today. Some of my biggest influences were some of the challenges I've faced, but they've taught me 20 important things by the start of my 20s.

Keep Reading... Show less

The Boyfriend Recipe

The ingredients to build a relationship are a little more complicated than just a bouquet of flowers and a box of candy.


Relationships. Long distance or not, significant others are much more than just that. I would be lying if I said I did not love the sweet gestures that only a boyfriend can give. The flowers, funny phone calls, hand holding, breakfast dates, and tight hugs are special but my relationship and many others out there exist on much more than just these little gestures. It is a tricky concoction that consists of one part boyfriend and two parts best friend and would not work without one part or the other. While having a relationship may not be quite as easy as baking a batch of cookies, it has its own recipe (with a few variations for flavor) to follow for a good match.

Keep Reading... Show less
google images

Fashion just keeps growing and changing and old trends are made new! Now, I'm no beauty guru, just a beauty guru wannabe, but personally I have compiled some stylish wardrobe must haves! These can be cute assets to go back to school or just to catch up on some of the latest trends...

Keep Reading... Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments