Everything I WILL do, everything that my life will consist of, everything that I have to look forward to, every day that I continue to heal and hurt less and less, I worry that with acceptance and change comes forgetfulness. I worry that while the clouds begin to clear, and the sky looks a little bit brighter each day, that with the loss of grief comes the loss of your memory.

However, regardless of the amazing moments that lie ahead, I realize that every day of my life, I WILL always miss you and that's OK. Moving on does not have to mean forgetting and the most important thing to realize is, there WILL be amazing things to look forward to. But, nobody should ever feel that moving forward is giving up the past and that moving on means forgetting those who we have lost, because it does not.

Eventually, we all find a way to learn how to move on with our lives but also learn how to hold onto everything we once had and may never have again. This does not mean living a lesser life, it just means, regardless of the amazing future that lies ahead, missing you will always be a part of my life and that is perfectly OK. Flawed and broken, yet just enough glue to hold it together and more than enough strength to keep it that way.

I will always miss you

I will have moments when I laugh uncontrollably. But I will always miss you.

I will experience happiness I never dreamed of. But I will always miss you.

I will graduate college. But I will always miss you.

I will live life to the fullest. But I will always miss you.

I will find love in my life. But I will always miss you.

I will smile as much as possible. But I will always miss you.

I will have good times and bad, but through all the times ... I will always miss you.