We're gonna take just a little break from our usual topic of dealing with loss, but this is something else that grieves me.

Everyone knows that there is a lot of talk about white privilege in society basically every day. I am fully aware of how unfair the world is to it's people. I love how everyone is pushing for awareness and rights and just everything equal. I'm proud to say that I want equality for our people. White, black, gay, a-sexual, transgender EVERYONE HAS A BEATING HEART! THEREFORE USE THAT HEART TO GIVE LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE.

Sorry for all caps... I can get intense.

Now, I have something really embarrassing to admit to: as a white heterosexual female in today's society I don't think I have ever recognized my white privilege or my lack of knowledge in equality between men and women (although, there is some of that I have seen). I call myself an ally, but I think I might be a little oblivious or ignorant to everything that I classify myself as an ally for. I have always just thought that if I treat everyone, and I mean Everyone the way I wish to be treated with kindness and care, that made me an ally.

Basically, I am a lost puppy in actually seeing the outside of my walls. I know that I can go out there and protest and do a sit-in until all voices have been heard, but I'm going to be honest: that scares the living daylight's outta me. Our world is getting so violent and destructive that I am not taking a stand for my friends and everyone else who deserves to have their humanity recognized.

I kinda think that might be one example of my own white privilege... I can just stay in my apartment and watch everyone else take a stand and no one will question me. I imagine other white people, not all whites let me clear, might just see me as a "normal, every-day, like-them-in-all-their-beliefs" girl. No one would know that I do believe in equality for all beings.

I apologize for my ignorance and my obliviousness, my friends who are deprived of their natural rights. I believe in you. I accept you. I love you and I will protect you when I can and when needed.