I am in silence.
This is really hard to say. As a sorority woman, I have made unbreakable bonds with my sisters, have created unforgettable memories, and grown as a woman and a leader. But until the end of Virginia Wesleyan College's Fall Formal Recruitment period, I am not allowed to specifically express this.
In February, I accepted the position as President of my college's Panhellenic Council. This incredible opportunity has taught me so much this semester. This position also means that I have to temporarily disaffiliate from my sorority 30 days before the recruitment period. This means that I am not allowed to share what sorority I am in with anyone, I can't wear my letters, and I can't go to chapter meetings or sorority events. For now, I am just a Panhellenic woman.
Don't get me wrong: I am really excited. I get to help PNMs coming through recruitment find where they belong. I get to help them find a home as I have found mine. I get to help girls through one of the most nerve-racking experiences that they will have in college.
The cliche, "I gave up my letters to help you find yours," could not be any more true. It is the "giving up my letters" part that is probably the most difficult.
They say that you find yourself in college. Well, I found myself because of my letters. My sisters helped me find myself. The confidence I have gained, because of my sisters, inspired me to go out for leadership roles, like this one. I am a better person because of my letters. And during this period of time, I have to hide this essential piece of my life. But not fully.
I think that this experience will also help me grow a deeper appreciation for the support system I have. Not having them there fully during this time will show me how different my life was before them. I believe that I will be able to show how much being a sorority woman has changed my life for the better, without sharing where I call home. I can show how much having that support from my sisters truly make my college experience much easier and fun. I can show how you can change someone else's life just by showing them the same love that my sisters show me on a daily basis.
All I know now is: I am in silence, but not forever. Bid Day could not come any faster.
