To the one who said I will fail in life and go nowhere,
You were absolutely right. I always told myself that you were wrong, but I was the one who was incorrect. You told me that I would never amount to anything, ever. You told me that I will fail so many times and never reach the goals I have in my life. When I told you that I wanted to pursue a higher education and attend college, you laughed at me and said that would never happen. When I told you that I wanted to attend medical school after my undergraduate career, you told me that I’m not smart enough to do such a thing. When I told you that I wanted to become a pediatrician and get married one day and have a happy family, you told me that I wouldn't be a good doctor; you told me that no guy would ever want to marry me. You even told me I would be an awful mother.
You looked at me straight in the face and told me that I’m a failure. “Faith, you’re such an idiot. You’ll always be a failure.” Those words burned and tore me apart. When I heard you tell me those things, I submitted to those words and accepted that you were right. I accepted the fact that I would never be a success, but that I would always be a failure. Oh goodness, I can’t explain how right you were about me failing. I failed so many times to the point where I didn’t believe in myself anymore – to the point where I couldn’t even look at myself in the mirror because of those hurtful words. I was afraid to look at myself in the mirror because I was so disgusted. I failed.
Then one day, your words meant something to me, but in a positive light. I realized that with the failures I have made, and will make, I could learn from those failures and improve myself and what I did in the future. You were right – I will fail, but you were wrong when you said that I will never be anything. You were wrong when you said that I would never attend college and pursue my goal of becoming a doctor. You were wrong when you said that I would never be a good wife and mother. Let me tell you this, buddy – I am in college, I am studying to become a pediatrician, I am working hard, and one day I will have the greatest family and I will be the best dang wife and mother ever. You were right about me failing, but you were insanely wrong about me never making something good of myself.
But now I am not afraid to look at you in the mirror anymore. I am not afraid to face you every morning and every night. I thank you for letting me prove myself to you. You thought you won, but newsflash – I won and I am STILL winning. I am never going to back down and give up on my hopes and dreams and amazing future God has planned for me.
I am not afraid of myself anymore. I can go anywhere.
