Dear future self,
You've been making a lot of big changes in your life lately. I'm writing this letter so that you can look back in a few years and remember why you changed what you did.
The hardest decision you've had to make this year was the decision to switch schools. You came out to Idaho specifically for Boise State University and even though you loved that school so much, it just wasn't a good fit. I think you're going to be much happier at a smaller school, a school that tends more toward your learning, and a school that doesn't cost an arm and a leg to attend.
The next decision you made was to switch majors. This wasn't that hard of a decision for you because you're not really enjoying psychology like you thought you would. Besides, if you failing your psych classes maybe you shouldn't be majoring in it. As I'm writing this letter, it's difficult to accept that I'm making the right choice. I hope that in a few years when I'm reading this again and things are so different that I can look back and appreciate the time I spent at BSU, but also thank myself for making a change when I did.
You made those choices for yourself. So that you could be happy. I think that we're finally on the right path and it feels good. There are going to be challenges along the way. It's not all going to be easy for you and the times aren't all going to be good, but you're doing something that you're excited about. You're making a change and putting yourself first and that's a good thing.
When things get hard and you're losing your motivation, think about all of the hardship you've been through at BSU. You've made it through so much and there's much more you need to get through. As I continue to grow and learn, I will always be changing. Figuring out what works for me and what doesn't hasn't always been easy. Everyone I've talked to these past few weeks about all the changes I'm making has been supportive. That's a good thing. Always remember that you have a fantastic support system and that's such an important thing in life.
I hope that I'm in a better place when I read this in a few years because things haven't been looking so bright lately. I've been caught in a funk and it's taken a toll on me. I've lost sight of who I really am and now is the time that I start working my way back to myself. There is so much good coming for me but it's not going to be easy getting there. I need to work hard, each and every day to make my dreams come true. I can do it. I have to do it.
For now, the only advice I can give you, as a sad twenty-year-old is to just never give up. I know it sounds cheesy but it's true. Don't give up on the people around you. Don't give up on yourself. Whatever happens, you can get through it. You have to get through it. I'm looking forward to the years coming to see what they bring me and to see how much I grow. No matter where I end up, my only hope is that I'm happy, and I know that I can be. I'll see you in a few years. Good luck.
From twenty-year-old me to myself whenever I need this reminder, believe in yourself. I believe in me.
