December 3rd 2015

A year ago today we first met.
I know this because
I made sure you remembered
When we were first together
As if it was going to be
a special occasion

As if you and I would make it
past my 3 months streak
I told you I didn't think
It was a good idea
for me to be your first
but you were so sure
we'd make it

My thoughts clouded by this illusion
I let you fall
At first,

I swept you off your feet
but later it felt more like
you hit concrete

I know because your drunk texts said so
The very texts I couldn't seem to delete

It's December 3rd 2016

and there is no cause for celebrations
No presents or fancy dinner reservations
We both argued who was at fault
I pleaded a good case
and called you the bad guy
straight to your face

Yet, a year has gone by
and i can't seem to let it go
I just want to apologise
so at least you know

No, this isn't me asking to try again
This is me asking for forgiveness
because I played a huge role in our demise
It took awhile to realize

but you need to know this

December 3rd 2016,
I hope this date doesn't bring you any pain
I hope by now, you've found someone new
and they show you what "I'll love you, forever" really means

and last, but not least,
I hope today doesn't remind you of me.

I know we all have our share of stories that involve our ex's being the worst people on earth. I'll even admit to enjoying a good psycho ex story but we hardly hear about the ones that may not have made it on the "word breaks of the year" list but still left a lasting impression.

A break up can be a learning experience without all of the drama and, I thank this one for helping me realize that, I messed up too. I could've been better. we could've could've better but I didn't give it time to reveal that side.

I've grown as a person since and I believe I am capable of being a better partner because of the lesson an ex helped me learn.