Adulting Is Hard

Adulting Is Hard

Being responsible and not procrastinating may be one of the hardest things ever.
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As a senior in high school, I'm doing the one thing every child dreams of, and everyone else dreads: adulting. Yes, I realize that's not an actual word, but many people have used it before to describe exactly what I'm talking about: doing responsible adult-like things and being productive. While children may see being an adult as this awesome unattainable thing, actual adults know the true struggles.

Many people have gone through what I'm going through now, and I'm just now realizing how stressful it really is, and I'm hating myself more and more for taking on too many things and procrastinating like crazy.

To prepare for college, you have to write all these essays and turn in your life story plus all the honors that you can conjure up to make yourself seem like a more accomplished person than you actually are. Once you've accumulated a web of stretched truths, you then write essay after essay about the same things, but in different words because the topics are slightly different, which makes a world of difference. By the time you finish one essay, you realize you need to write three more after that, and then when you finish those, there somehow ends up being ten more.

If you somehow manage to finish all the essays that keep racking up exponentially, you have homework that needs to be finished. Yes, among all the college prep that you've been doing, there's still high school responsibilities. By the time you finish the poetry analyses, it'll be late into the night because half the time that you spent writing and the other half the time you spent eating. If you push through though, you might have enough time to study for that math test that you have first thing in the morning. But that's taking into consideration that you're skipping out on squad night to be responsible. If you don't skip, maybe you'll get home at around 11, which leaves just enough time to finish everything, take a quick shower and sleep for exactly two hours and 16 minutes.

Of course, in the morning you'll feel absolutely exhausted, but it was all worth it, right? You make it through the week like this, only to realize in that time, you forgot to account for extracurricular activities. Maybe football, basketball, debate, band, or cheer practice took up a solid chunk of your week. That leaves less time to fill out college applications and write essays.

Oh no! You forgot that you also need to balance your social life in there too. Maybe attend a birthday party every once in a while or hang out with friends or host a group study session, during which you get absolutely nothing accomplished. Those all count as social things right? Even though you can't quite Instagram those, they still validate that you're not a complete loser. Speaking of Instagram, you remember that you need to plan a few cool outdoor trips in advance with friends and family, so you can add them to your instagram page just to seem artsy and creative.

While we're still on the topic of social media, don't forget that you joined that one writing club thing. What was it called? The newspaper activity Odyssey! Yes! I joined Odyssey as a creative outlet. But wait, there's something else I seem to be forgetting. Oh crap! My article is due today, and I haven't written anything yet! It's almost 9 and I need to turn it in soon... Better get writing!

Yeah, I really suck at this adulting thing.

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22 New Things That I Want To Try Now That I'm 22

A bucket list for my 22nd year.

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"I don't know about you but I'm feelin' 22," I have waited 6 long years to sing that and actually be 22! Now 22 doesn't seem like a big deal to people because you can't do anything that you couldn't do before and you're still super young. But I'm determined to make my 22nd year a year filled with new adventures and new experiences. So here's to 22.

1. Go sky diving.

What's crazier than jumping out of a plane? (Although I'll probably try indoor skydiving first.)

2. Go cliff jumping/diving.

I must be the only Rhode Islander who hasn't gone to Jamestown and jumped off a cliff.

3. Ride in a hot air balloon.

Up, up and away.

4. Try out skiing.

Cash me in the next Olympics, how bout dat.

5. Try out snow boarding.

Shawn White, I'm coming for you.

6. Go bungee jumping.

Because at least this time I'll be attached to something.

7. Go to Portugal.

I mean I'm Portuguese so I have to go at some point, right?

8. Go to Cape Verde.

Once again, I'm Cape Verdean so I have to go.

9. Vist one of the seven wonders of the world.

I mean hey, Egypt's on, my bucket list.

10. Try out surfing.

It's only natural that somebody from the Ocean State knows how to surf.

11. Learn a new langauge.

Because my little bit of Portuguese, Spanish and Latin isn't cutting it anymore.

12. Travel to a state that I've never been to before.

Fun fact: I've only been to 17 of the 50 states.

13. Go paddle boarding.

Pretty boring but I've never done it.

14. Go scuba diving.

I'm from the Ocean State so I guess I should see the ocean up close and personal.

15. Learn how to line dance.

There's actually a barn in my state that does line dancing, so this one will definitely get crossed off.

16. Go kayaking.

All this water around me and I haven't done a lot of the water activites.

17. Stay the night in a haunted hotel room.

I bet if I got my friends to come with me, it would be like the Suite Life of Zach and Cody episode, minus the ghost coming out of the wall but you never know.

18. Get my palms read.

Because who doesn't want to know their future.

19. Go to a medium.

Like a medium that can communicate with people that have died.

20. Take a helicopter ride.

Air plane: check Helicopter:....

21. Sleep under the stars.

Because sleeping in a tent is more like glamping than camping

22. Just to try new things in my everyday life.

Whether it's trying a new restaurant, getting something different at my usual restaurants, changing my usual style, going on the scary rides at amusement parks, and bringing things I used to do back into my life now.

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I Woke up In The Middle Of The Night To Write About My Fears, They're Worse Than The Dark

One minute I'm thinking about what I want to do after college next thing I know I'm remembering the time I tried talking to a boy and choked on my spit.

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It is one of those nights when I am tired, but for some reason, I can't seem to fall asleep. So, what do I do? I pull out my laptop, and I begin to write. Who knows where it will lead. It could lead to a killer article or something that does not make sense. I mean it is almost 2 A.M. In my mind, that's pretty late.

Anyways, let's do this thing.

Like many people, thoughts seem to pile up in my head at this time. It could be anything from a time when I was younger to embarrassing stories to wondering why I am "wasting" my time somewhere to thoughts about the future. All of these things come at me like a wildfire. One minute I'm thinking about what I want to do after college next thing I know I'm remembering the time I tried talking to a boy and choked on my spit.

The thought that is going through my mind as I write this is about the future. It's about the future of my fears. Let me explain. I have multiple fears. Some of my fears I can hide pretty well, others I am terrible at hiding. My fears may seem silly to some. While others might have the same fears. Shall we start?

1. My career

I don't know where to begin with this one. For as long as I can remember, my consistent dream job has been working in the world of sports, specifically hockey. A career in sports can be and is a challenging thing. The public eye is on you constantly. A poor trade choice? Fans are angry. Your team sucks? "Fans" are threatening to cheer for someone else if you can't get your sh*t together. You can be blamed for anything and everything. Whether you are the coach, general manager, owner, it does not matter. That's terrifying to me, but for some reason, I want to work for a team.

2. My family

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Failing with my family, whether that be the family I was born into or my future family, it terrifies me. I have watched families around me fall apart and I have seen how it has affected them. Relationships have fallen apart because of it. I have heard people talk about how much they hate one of their parents because of what happened. I don't want that.

3. Time

This could be a dumb fear. I'm not sure, but I fear time. With every minute that passes, I am just another minute closer to the end. With every day that passes that I am not accomplishing goals or dreams I have, I am losing precious time. It scares me to think of something horrible like "What if I die tomorrow because of something horrific?" or even worse, "What if I don't make it through today?" It's terrible, I know.

4. Forgetting precious memories

When I was younger, I had brain surgery. It is now much harder for me to remember things. I am truly terrified that I am going to forget things I will want to hold close to me forever, but I won't be able to. I am scared I'll forget about the little things that mean a lot. I'm afraid of forgetting about old memories that may disappear. I'm worried that I'll forget about something like my wedding day. That might seem out of this world, but it's a reality for me.

5. Saying "goodbye"

I hate saying bye. It is one of my least favorite things. Saying bye, especially to people I don't know when I'll see again, is a stab in the heart for me. I love my people so much. I love being around them. I love laughing with them. Thought of never having a hello with them again scares me beyond belief.

6. Leaving places that I love

Alright, let me start off by saying this- it takes a lot for me to love a place. It has to feel like home. It has to make me feel comfortable. It has to be a place I can go to and be myself. Thankfully, I have had and still have multiple places that are like that. I have also had places I could not wait to leave. I think that's why leaving places I love is so hard and something I fear so much. I am afraid I'll never get that place "back", for lack of a better term. I guess, I'm trying to say, it's like a piece of me is leaving as well.




These six things are just the start of my fears. Some of these might seem "dumb" or "ridiculous" to you, but for me, it's my life. These are the things that I think about the most. These are the things that feel like a pit in my stomach. These six things are parts of my life that mean a lot to me.

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