Hello you,

This feels so unreal. This letter feels unreal. I would never think I would be writing something about this, about you.

I wonder if you still think of me like I think of you. I know it has been a second since we have spoken or saw each other eye to eye, and I feel a million miles away from you.

This hurts because I feel like I don't even know who you are. I feel like I have never met the person you have transformed into. I see all the pictures, the memories, on my phone, and I question the point we lost each other. I question the day we both woke up, not wanting to live in each other's worlds anymore. I know that so much of our worlds are constantly crashing around us, but I never thought I would lose you in this process we call life.

I know that you are probably doing well. I never stop thinking of how happy I always want you to be.

10 years ago, you walked into my life. We slowly but instantly had magnetic energy. From that day forward, I never dreamed of a day you would no longer be a part of my life. We even once daydreamed of having neighboring mansions, with underground tunnels so that when we need our late-night talks about life, we would always have each other. I would have never thought that there would be a day when someone asked me who my best friend was and your name didn't fall off my lips.

I am so sorry things are not going as we planned.

I am sorry that I call someone else my best friend. I am sorry that we aren't doing all the things we dreamed of doing by now. I am sorry for the times I didn't answer the phone when I needed to, and I am sorry this is so weird.

Us not being best friends is weird.

However, that's life.

It feels as if I had a favorite song that I no longer listen to anymore. I know there is darkness in your life and I know that somewhere in all this madness of growing up. We lost each other. The never-ending love and fun that once was the glue of our relationship wore away.

I want you to know that it is okay. I want you to know that I will be okay without the late-night calls, the never-ending deep discussions, the sleepovers, the late-night movies, and the nights filled with so much life and happiness with you.

Life is so hard and if anyone knows that, it's you. You are so strong, and you amaze me every single day. The life you live may not always have light, but I know that wherever you go, the light comes with you.

I hope all your dreams and aspirations come true. I hope that you set goals and crush them. I hope that you build and lead a beautiful life in everything you do. I never want you to feel like life is killing you because you are a warrior, you make everyone around you so happy and feel so loved.

I wish you could see yourself through my eyes, that way I know that you know you are so loved and so awe-inspiring.

I cried while writing this, and I hope you know I miss you. I know that life is leading us apart and to maybe never circle back to each other. However, I am here for you. I will always be here for you.

I love you.

xoxo,

your no longer best friend