If you're reading this and you even have to consider that this could be about you, then you're right.
My entire life people have told me that I forgive too easily and suggest I end friendships because they are toxic. I've constantly put others before myself and have excused people's wrongdoings. Many times my heart aches and my anxiety builds up, where I'm becoming a ticking time bomb inside. To all my toxic friends, this is my final goodbye to you all.
It's time for me to stand up and recognize how deserving I am of having healthy friendships. Friendships with people who love me for exactly who I am. Friendships with people who I can trust wholeheartedly. Friendships with people who will never turn their back on me.
Before I decided to write this letter, I looked back at old photos. I was reminded of all the fun times we did have together. Oddly enough, looking at the pictures also reminded me of all the times you've hurt me and I forgave you so easily. Looking at the pictures reminded me of the one time I made a mistake and I wasn't so easily forgiven. They reminded me of all the hurt you've ever made me feel. Then the pictures taught me something… They taught me that it's time to let go and be happy.
If you're reading this, then you know that you've always struggled to find the good in others. That you've constantly had to put other people down in order to lift yourself up. You know that you've manipulated so many people to get exactly what you want. That you haven't considered other people's feelings and what your actions may do to your own friends. That you've been more worried about getting attention from men that you didn't realize that you were begging for your own friend's boyfriend's affection. That getting immediate gratification was more important than the repercussions of your actions.
If you're reading this, then I want you to know that I still forgive you. It's not that I forget all the times you've broken my heart, but that I want you to know that you haven't broken me. You've made me realize my worth and that there are people out there that deserve my friendship… You're just not one of those people. If I wasn't able to forgive you, then I wouldn't be able to move on and gosh darn it, I am so ready to move on.
Thank you. Thank you for teaching me how strong I truly am. Thank you for teaching me that some people are not meant to be in your life and that's okay. Thank you for teaching me how to move on from friendships that I thought were going to last a lifetime.
And goodbye.
