The feeling I got in my stomach every day I spent time with you began to change the way I saw our friendship, and the way I saw myself. As soon as the laughs were over and the fun was done, you began to change. As days, weeks, months and years went on; our friendship changed. Maybe you changed, or maybe it was me, I don't know, but what I do know is that I did not feel like a friend anymore. The time we spent together began to shift, it began to be inconvenient for you. I became inconvenient for you.

Other friends and boyfriends were always temporary...except for me. As these people filtered in and out of your life, you never seemed to notice my consistency. My constant, true, genuine friendship was overlooked in every situation. Other friendships that I had warned you about began to take priority, and me? I faded into the background, and even at that, the background is stretching it. The background is where I stayed most of the time while I saw numerous people take my place for weeks or even months at a time.

I kept our secrets, I kept our promises, and I kept your love even when you showed it in the wrong ways. I was there every day to hold you and comfort you when boys broke your heart time and time again. Warning after warning I gave you of girls who would stab you in the back, but still, I remained the friend who cleaned up their messes and patched the wounds in your back.

These friends wanted nothing good for you. They wanted to have fun with you for one night, sometimes not even that. They used you for the good times and the fun, then you became nothing to them. Sadly, I knew exactly how you felt because I got that from a friend once...that friend was you.

But thankfully I knew how to get out. I finally realized that I am worth more than a friendship that makes me feel like I'm not worthy of someone investing time into me and speaking encouragement into my life. And today, I can only pray that one day you can find the strength to stand up for yourself and to see the worth God has given you.

And I can promise you, that the day you find the strength to get out, I will be right here waiting to be the friend I always have been. I will be here cheering you on from the side line, because no one can make the decision to get out, except for you. You have to stand up for yourself and be strong for yourself, just like I did. But like I said before, I will be here. I will be here waiting and praying for you to see that you are worthy, worthy of a friend like me.