There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of you. The memories I have of you are moments in my life that I hold very close to my heart. I wish more and more every day that I could just call you and tell you about the things that have been going on in my life; you would be so proud.
1. I love you.
I love you with every passing day, and my love for you has never faltered. I feel your love in every little thing that makes me happy, because I feel your presence in happy times.
2. Your memories haven’t faded.
I have so many beautiful memories of you. I have memories that will never leave my head. They encompass certain things that I come into contact with, like O.P. I’s “Italian Love Affair” nail polish; the song “I’m Leavin’ on a Jet Plane” by Peter, Paul & Mary; and the smell of Boudoir perfume. You have made such an impact on my life.
3. I see you in myself every day.
I’m beginning to see parts of your personality intertwined with mine, and I couldn’t be more proud to share such beautiful characteristics with someone so important to me. I see your wits, your sarcasm and your intuition in my own self.
4. I made it to college, and my first clinical will be at a hospital very important to you.
As I attend Carlow University for nursing, I know you’re in heaven looking down on me with pride. You always told me I’d be a wonderful nurse, and that you’ve had your share of “lousy” nurses in your day. When I received news of my clinical placement being in Shadyside, tears filled my eyes. I knew this was a sign from you. You took your last breaths in Shadyside just a year and a half ago, and soon I’ll be walking back in as part of the staff that did everything they could to save you.
5. I know you’re watching over me.
I can see your influence in every decision I make in life. I know you’re here subtly giving me advice in any way you can. Every time I’m having a bad day, I know the beam of sun that shines through the clouds is you telling me to go on. I can hear you saying, “Sammy girl, you better be careful at school. I used to run those streets in Oakland when I was your age!” You’re looking out for me and keeping me safe in any way that you can.
While I would give my entire life for you to have just one more day of yours, I know you’re at peace and happy. I hope you can see all that I do just to make you proud. Rest easy, beautiful soul.
