Today, I sat in the library and typed up some homework that was due in an hour. To my luck I forgot to add a headline, spaced it out awkwardly and didn't re-read it until after I turned it in, so of course, I came across some bad grammar and spelling. To top it all off, the printer left some weird ink marks on it but time was of the essence so I went with it. I got to class and looked around only to find that everyone had turned in what looked like their best work. Something clicked in me, and it made me feel really bad and like I had let myself go both academically and personally. I started to really question myself and my motives as a student and a person in general. Did I really fight this hard to get a higher education, just to turn in work that doesn't meet what I am capable of? After class, I got in my car and down came the waterworks. One of the worst feelings in life is to feel like, after everything that you've sacrificed, you've amounted to absolutely nothing. During my drive home, I was able to get myself together and mentally organize my feelings of self-rejection. Along the way I came across some thought-provoking conclusions:
1. Stop comparing yourself to others.
Whenever you find yourself comparing yourself to others, you need to take the time to step back and comprehend that everyone is fighting their own battle. Just like everyone else you are on the outside looking in meaning that there is so much more than what meets the eye.
2. Your time will come.
Everyone's timing is different. Just because it's someone else's time doesn't mean it has to be yours too. Your time will come and it will be worth every single sacrifice and investment you've ever made.
3. Don't stop believing.
Bad days will happen when you're fighting for a cause that truly means something to you, whatever that maybe. Believe in it cherish it, and when it tries to knock you down, get back up and let it know that you mean business.
4. "You is kind, you is smart, you is important."
You are worth all the good things that happen to you and you are worthy of taking the bad things and letting them go. You are so much more than you give yourself credit for and because of this you will break down but you have to come back in full force and ready to fight for that dream that is invading your thoughts.
5. Failure is OK.
You will doubt yourself to the core when you fail, but these moments of failure aren't permanent they have come to pass and make sense of that pain that you will convert into strength over time.
