I think we all have that playlist on our phones that is the direct result from a heartbreak. You know what I'm talking about, it's either labeled "the feels" or with a simple ":(" under your Spotify playlists. AND GUESS WHAT, it's totally okay to admit it! I know every one of you people reading this has one of those kinds of playlists and if not, you at least have a few secret songs hidden away that bring back some old memories for you. I know this is extremely personal to each and every one of you, but in a strange last ditch effort to get rid of some of my "feels" I wanted to share my 4 most personal songs with the world.
I'm a crazy person, I'm aware. I'm just gonna roll with it...
1. Lost Stars - Adam Levine
"Please don't see just a boy caught up in dreams and fantasiesPlease see me reaching out for someone I can't see Take my hand let's see where we wake up tomorrow Best laid plans sometimes are just a one night stand I'd be damned Cupid's demanding back his arrow So let's get drunk on our tears and God, tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young It's hunting season and the lambs are on the run Searching for meaning But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark? Who are we? Just a speck of dust within the galaxy? Woe is me, if we're not careful turns into reality Don't you dare let our best memories bring you sorrow Yesterday I saw a lion kiss a deer Turn the page maybe we'll find a brand new ending Where we're dancing in our tears and God, tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young It's hunting season and the lambs are on the run Searching for meaning But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark? ooh And I thought I saw you out there crying, ooh And I thought I heard you call my name, yeah, yeah And I thought I heard you out there crying, oh Just the same, oh, yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah God, give us the reason youth is wasted on the young It's hunting season and this lamb is on the run Searching for meaning But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark? ooh And I thought I saw you out there crying, ooh And I thought I heard you call my name, ooh And I thought I heard you out there crying, oh But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark? But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?"
2. Desperado - Eagles
"Desperado, why don't you come to your senses You been out ridin' fences for so long now Oh, you're a hard one I know that you got your reasons These things that are pleasin' you Can hurt you somehow Don't you draw the Queen of Diamonds, boy She'll beat you if she's able You know the Queen of Hearts is always your best bet Now, it seems to me some fine things Have been laid upon your table, But you only want the ones that you can't get Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no younger Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home And freedom, oh freedom, well that's just some people talkin' Your prison is walking through this world all alone Don't your feet get cold in the winter time? The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine It's hard to tell the night time from the day You're losin' all your highs and lows; Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away? Desperado, why don't you come to your senses? Come down from your fences; open the gate It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, before it's too late"
3. Hourglass - Catfish and the Bottlemen
****start at 1:39 for the good stuff
"You know when you're gone I struggle at night Dreams of you f**ing me all the time And I know your tied up And I know your phone's f***ed I'm craving your calls like a soldier's wife I wanna bring you home myself Bring you home myself Come back, move in, mess my place Chest infect me, waste my days 'Cause I know you love to drive me up the wall I know you love to drive me up the wall I wanna bring you home myself Bring you home myself
And I'm so impatient when you're not mine
I just want to catch up on all the lost times
And I'll say I'm sorry if I sound sordid
'Cause all I really ever want is youOffer my hand and I'll take your name Share my shower, kiss my frame 'Cause I wanna carry all of your children
And I wanna call them stupid sh*t"
4. Muscle Memory (acoustic) - Lights
"After having spent the fast year Waiting for the next time I can get you close I grew used to being back here Like a chorus and rhyme, soldier at his post You call and I respond, the sparrow and the song I miss you when you’re gone When I am alone, I see you in the dark I talk into the empty like you were with me Started on a cold night, felt you in the low light Noticing a reflex taking over me I see you when I reach Muscle memory Again, off into the next fall I am on the back steps trying to let you in See you standing in the front hall Maybe this is madness underneath my skin Guess love is the response of the body it haunts And we do what it wants When I am alone, I see you in the dark I talk into the empty like you were with me Started on a cold night, felt you in the low light Noticing a reflex taking over me I see you when I reach Muscle memory I feel you endlessly Muscle memory When you feel the chains of a thousand words And I speak your name like I know you heard I can feel you there, I can hear you move And it moves me, too And I’m playing games and I’m drinking wine And I see your glass sitting next to mine I can feel you there when you’re not at home Like I’m not alone When I am alone, I see you in the dark I talk into the empty like you were with me Started on a cold night, felt you in the low light Noticing a reflex taking over me I see you when I reach Muscle memory I feel you endlessly Muscle memory "
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